They Don't Even Know

They don't even know
他们根本都不知道
I'm dealing with trauma
我正在处理着伤疤
It's become a part of me
我们成为一个部分
They don't even know
他们甚至都不知道
I have PTSD
我的PTSD（创伤后精神紧张性精神障碍）
A pain that'll never leave
成为离不开我的痛苦
They don't even know
他们根本都不知道
That my heart doesn't beat
我的心早没了跳动
I'm tryna find a remedy
我找不到办法补救
They don't even know
他们甚至都不知道
That I can hardly sleep
我时常夜难安寝
Because I see you in my dreams
因为我早就知道，我注定梦见你
Yeah
耶
Always see you in my dreams
我注定梦见你
I think I need to wake up
我需要时刻保持清醒
I just wish I could move on
我希望可以继续前进
'Cause I don't wanna stay stuck
因为我不想踯躅不前
The voices in my head's loud
在我脑海中的执念
They never seem to stay shut
却从来没有关闭
Overthink 'til I can't sleep
过度思考让我失眠
Paranoid, so I stay up
美好幻想让我无法入眠
Always lost in my thoughts again
再一次淹没在我的思绪中
Show caged pain to my audience
再一次踯躅不前
Watch me rise 'til I fall again
看我站起来再倒下
Hate my mind 'cause it's fraudulent
我讨厌虚伪的幻想
Always swimmin' in doubt
在怀疑中穿梭
I can't ever get out of it
我无法跳出这个圈子
Women want me for clout
她们总是渴望着我底下的位子
Now I'm raising my walls again
现在的我跨过围墙
Biggest fear's blowing up
只有毁灭才能让我无法抵挡
Before reducin' the trauma
在我千疮百孔之前
'Cause all of that added stress will only add to the problem
这些才会是我的负担
I got a lot of money
我现在拥有金山银山
It doesn't fix anything
只是像街边的尘土一般
Want someone to love me, 'cause
想让她爱我一生一世，因为...
Then that would mean everything
我将孤注一掷
Always feeling high
总是高高在上
Then I'm feeling down again
却又跌入深渊
Tryna find the source
试图探本朔源
Don't know what the problem is
却依旧停滞不前
Why am I alone?
为什么我注定孤独
Lost the ones I started with
走到最后还是一人
They don't even know
他们甚至不知道
That I'm getting tired of this
我早已云淡风轻
They don't even know
他们根本不知道
I'm dealing with trauma
我早会自我安慰
It's become a part of me
我们成为了一部分
They don't even know
他们就是不知道
I have PTSD
我的PTSD（post-traumatic stress disorder）
A pain that'll never leave
永远困扰我的痛苦
They don't even know
他们还是不知道
That my heart doesn't beat
我的心早就没了跳动
I'm tryna find a remedy
我找不到办法补救
They don't even know
他们不知道
That I can hardly sleep
我夜不能寐
Because I see you in my dreams
因为我看见你在我梦里
Yeah
耶
My left arm's filled with tattoos
我左臂上的刺青
When really those are just scars
在我眼里只是疤痕
I got 'em during bad moods
伤心时才会显现
Or whenever life was hard
只有生活中的困难
Always use a distraction
才会将我打乱
From all the pain in my heart
那些悲痛在我心底
Never found satisfaction
从未得到平缓
From getting paid for my art
从我的创作中得到报酬
It's a ridiculous trade-off
别再说什么可笑的权衡
That only seems to worsen
这些只是雪上加霜
'Cause money doesn't pay off
因为有钱不一定能使鬼推磨
When you're a broken person
当你要灰飞烟灭时
It hurts when some people think
他们的想法只是无尽的伤害
My music's music itself
我的音乐才是本质
When really it's my diary
它就是我每天的开始
I literally cry for help
我像是我的日记
I'm overlooked, I'm disregarded
我只是被忽视的
I'm insecure, I'm broken-hearted
没有一点点安全感
I feel unsteady, the pressure's heavy
我稳定不下来，压力排山倒海
I'm getting tired of bein' an artist
我讨厌当个艺术家
Need rehabilitation, a reset from all of this
需要在康复中重新开始
I'm at the point of breaking
我早已崩溃
When's the end to all of this?++
何时才能画上句号
Always feeling high
总是高高在上
Then I'm feeling down again
却又跌入深渊
Tryna find the source
试图探本朔源
Don't know what the problem is
再一次踯躅不前
Why am I alone?
可孤独只属于我一人
Lost the ones I started with
走到最后还是冰消冻解
They don't even know
他们根本都不知道
That I'm getting tired of this
我真的不在乎了
They don't even know
他们就不知道
I'm dealing with trauma
我早就学会隐藏自己
It's become a part of me
悲伤成为了我的一部分
They don't even know
他们不会知道了
I have PTSD
我的PTSD
A pain that'll never leave
离不开我的悲伤
They don't even know
他们不知道
That my heart doesn't beat
我心如死灰
I'm tryna find a remedy
我没办法补救
They don't even know
他们不知道
That I can hardly sleep
我依旧夜难安寝
Because I see you in my dreams
梦里总归是你