No One Knows

Yeah, feels like Im losing myself
是啊，感覺我快失去自我了
Feels like Im losing myself
感覺我好像失去了自我
Why am I dooming myself
我為什麼要毀了自己
The **** did I do to myself
我對自己做了什麼
Shouldve been true to myself
應該對我自己說實話
Dumb to think you wouldve helped
愚蠢到以為你會幫忙
Dumb to think you wouldve helped
愚蠢到以為你會幫忙
Feels like Im brewing in Hell
感覺我在地獄裡醞釀
Feels like Im brewing in Hell
感覺我在地獄裡醞釀
Cant be hard for you to tell, uh
你很難說，呃
Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up
陷入了困境，我一直往上爬
I just turned 25 feels like my time is up
我剛滿25歲就覺得時間到了
Feels like everyones sus and its harder to trust
感覺每個人都是我們，更難相信
And I cant shake the gut feeling
我無法動搖我的直覺
Im feeling like theres a knife in my gut
我覺得我肚子裡有把刀
And thats a gut feeling
這是一種直覺
When you know deep down that the real person you love
當你內心深處知道你愛的人
Is dooming you thats why I left
這就是我離開的原因
No dont get upset when you see me cause I didnt wanna give you up
不，當你看到我的時候別生氣，因為我不想放棄你
And its ****ed to think for you I wasnt enough
為你想想我還不夠
I just wanted your love but you wanted
我只是想要你的愛，但你想要
Theres some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk
有些晚上我想去把他灌醉
So everything I was feeling could turn into numb
所以我感覺到的一切都會變得麻木
Addicted to you, youre my favorite drug
對你上癮了，你是我最喜歡的毒品
I buy your lies, youre my favorite plug
我相信你的謊言，你是我最喜歡的
Sometimes at night I will stare up above
有時晚上我會抬頭仰望
And wish under a star that I wasnt so dumb
希望我不是那麼蠢
Why does it even matter, shit I didnt matter
為什麼這很重要，媽的，我不在乎
I built up my hope just for it to get shattered
我建立了我的希望，只是希望它破滅
Im always alone with the thoughts that I gather
我總是獨自一人思考我收集的思想
I flip through my thoughts its a terrible pattern
我把我的思想翻了個底朝天，這是一個可怕的模式
As if flipping through em will lead me to answers
好像翻閱一下就能找到答案
I try to move forward, but keep going backwards
我試著向前走，但總是向後走
I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter
我把所有的微笑和痛苦都藏在我的笑容後面
Where no one knows that Im a wild disaster, ****
我不知道這是什麼災難
Give my all
全給我
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走開
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
And no one ever knows
沒人知道
See me fall
看著我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我會崩潰的
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
But no one ever knows
但沒人知道
Always alone I wish someone could see me
總是一個人我希望有人能看見我
I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling
我躺在床上仰望天花板
Talking to myself until Im overthinking
自言自語直到我過度思考
Im home all alone no one knows that Im weeping
我一個人在家沒人知道我在哭
I swear my whole life is so ****ing deceiving
我發誓我的一生都是如此的欺騙
And I stand for broke with the checks Im receiving
我拿著我收到的支票代表破產
My money cant buy the family Im needing
我的錢買不起我需要的家庭
My money cant heal the agony Im feeling
我的錢無法治愈我的痛苦
I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me
我需要一個愛我的人，一個擁抱我的人
Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly
當我的思想變得醜陋的時候有人在那裡
I swear they really think my life is stunning
我發誓他們真的認為我的生活很精彩
Bro I come home to absolutely nothing
老兄，我一無所有
Im just a lonely guy loaded with money
我只是一個孤獨的有錢人
Nobody told me my days wont be sunny
沒人告訴我我的日子不好過
Im bleeding on people who didnt cut me
我在為那些沒割我的人流血
So when they leave me, they leave cause they bloody
所以當他們離開我的時候，他們離開是因為他們血腥
I have issues with women, Im so co-depended
我和女人有矛盾，我太依賴女人了
I cant love myself, so I need her to give it
我不能愛自己，所以我需要她付出
And thats always where my self-worth is depicted
這就是我自我價值的體現
And thats why I date women so narcissistic
這就是為什麼我和女人約會如此自戀
My mind is a mess and its always conflicted
我的腦子一團糟，總是矛盾重重
And lately its been hard to make a decision
最近很難做出決定
And it pains me that I finally admit it
我終於承認了，這讓我很痛苦
Ive been suicidal and trying not to end it, ****
我一直有自殺的念頭，並試圖不結束它
Give my all
全力以赴
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走開
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
And no one ever knows
沒人知道
See me fall
看著我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我會崩潰的
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
But no one ever knows
但沒人知道
Im saddened to think people that think that Im reaching
我很難過那些認為我正在接觸的人
And that is the reason I feel what Im feeling
這就是為什麼我能感受到我的感受
I may have some fame, but its pain that Im reaping
我也許有些名氣，但我正在收穫的是痛苦
I been praying to God asking Him for a healing
我一直在向上帝祈禱，求他醫治我
Man, I need my mom, I need my dad
伙計，我需要我媽媽，我需要我爸爸
I need the family we never had
我需要我們從未有過的家庭
Our familys broken , Im feeling hopeless
我們的家庭破裂了，我感到絕望
Nobody notice Im in a trance
沒人注意到我在發呆
All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes
我只有女兒我盯著她的眼睛
And I break down all I do is provide
我把我所做的一切都分解了
How can I give her a family life
我怎麼能給她一個家庭生活
When its just me and her every night, ****
每天晚上只有我和她
Yo, this shit is too much
喲，這狗屎太多了
Im single-handedly killing my buzz
我一個人在消磨我的嗡嗡聲
I dont make music cause Im in a rut
我不做音樂是因為我太單調了
And all of the stress of it is making me numb
所有的壓力都讓我麻木了
Why do I dream of a Grammy Im winning
為什麼我夢見我要贏的格萊美獎
When I dont have a family to celebrate with me
當我沒有家人和我一起慶祝的時候
Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me
聽著，你不能給我一個胡說八道的藉口
To make me feel like my damn life is worth living
讓我覺得我的生命值得活下去
I swear loneliness is a cancer within me
我發誓孤獨是我內心的毒瘤
Im searching for friends cause my familys missing
我在找朋友因為我的家人失踪了
This shit is exhausting, Im thinking of quitting
這件事太累人了，我在考慮辭職
And maybe the end for me is a new beginning
也許對我來說，結束是一個新的開始
Give my all
全力以赴
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走開
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
And no one ever knows
沒人知道
See me fall
看著我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我會崩潰的
Im living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一樣
But no one ever knows
但沒人知道