Drowning

Yeah, I wish I can numb this pain
我希望我等對痛苦麻木
I thought by now I won't complain
我想現在我將不再抱怨
I got the cash with half the fame
我用一半的信譽去換取金錢
Lost half my heart and kept the veins
失去一半初心後我行我素
We had our spark and lost our flame
我們曾有過火花後失去了火焰
I tried to talk, had none to say
我嘗試去傾訴，卻空無一人
I want the love, you never gave
我想要愛，但你從未給過我
Was hurting me your only aim
你唯一的目標傷到了我
You shot my heart, I bled out hate
射中了我的內心，流出了我的仇恨
'Cause though you left, the trauma stayed
因為即使你離開，傷口仍存在
I wish the past, would go away
我希望過去的時光將會離去
But I guess gotta live with it
但我猜將會與之共行
Times changed, I don't feel different
時光流逝，我從未感到不同
Despite the hurdles in my life I kept my vision alive
儘管一生中有許多的阻礙，但我仍保持頭腦清醒
I had no one on my side, yet I still did it
沒有人在我身旁，但我仍堅持著
I'm missing thе old me, talking pre-deprеssion
我懷念曾經的我，訴說著墮落之前
Where I felt alive and I had a connection
那時我活著有意義，與世界有著聯繫
Now I'm dead inside 'cause I lost my direction
現在我的內心已死，因為失去了對自己的定位
I don't put my wall down for my own protection
我不會將內心的牆推倒是為了自我保護
And I'm tired of people using me
我疲於人們利用我
People lie, what do you believe?
人們都在撒謊，你該相信誰
I know people see the truth in me
我知道人們看到了真實的我
And I know one day you will see
我知道有一天你也會看穿
That being true was a tool for me
保持真實只是我的工具
I be sticking to myself
我只依賴我自己
I don 't need nobody else
不需要其他人
Just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me
只是為了治癒創傷並讓它遠離我
'Cause lately I'm losing sleep
因為再晚一點我將會失眠
And nobody's getting through tome
沒有人能了解我
It's 'cause it
這一切是因為
Feels like I'm losing sleep
感覺像是失眠
I want my mind at ease
我想變得無憂無慮
Feels like I'm losing me
像是失去了本心
I wanna find relief
我想要找到解藥
Feels like I need to breath
像是需要呼吸
I think I'm in too deep, now
我想我現在已墮落到深處
I'm drowning in my thoughts
我快被我的想法淹死
Drowning, by myself
我要把自己淹死
I'm drowning, I need help
我已被淹末，我需要幫助！
I'm drowning, they can't tell
我將要溺死，他們也不會說出
I'm drowning, oh
我快溺死了
I'm still here and still driven
我仍在堅持和努力
People see me as a meal ticket
人們把我看做餐券
They get nothing, they can deal with it
他們什麼都得不到，只想著用它來交易
I guess me and them were built different
我猜我們有不同的建樹
I work for whatever I'm given
我工作從不在乎回報
I been living inside of my room since I was fifteen
我從十五歲就獨自住在我的房間
Making a bunch a songs hoping somebody gets me
製作很多歌曲，希望有人能理解我
I always felt alone and the feeling is sickening
我經常感到孤單，那種感覺讓我噁心
When your expressing your pain and no one is listening
當你表達你的痛苦卻無人願意去傾聽
And life's hard to manage
生活很難維持下去
I feel like I have a disadvantage
我想我有一堆的缺點
Since my childhood left me hella damaged
從小就受到hella（？）的欺負
I don't know love because I never had it
我不懂的愛因為我從未擁有過
Every relationship I' m in never lasted
我從維持過和任何人的關係
Only toxic woman was all I attracted
只有那個惡毒的女人能吸引我全部的注意力
I continuously fear having attachments
我仍害怕有著與她有關的東西
Honestly, it was really hard getting past it
說真的，很難逃離這一切
But, it is what it is, you get what you give
但，事已至此，你得到了你所付出
I wish I learned quicker, look, Iprobably did
我願自己能學的更快，看我大概是做到了
Just didn't accept it
我是不願安與現狀
Inside of my mind is where my demons roam
我內心的深處，是魔鬼在漫步
I try to hide 'cause they won't leave me alone
我嘗試躲避，因為他們從未離我而去
I overthink all of my mistakes on my own
我想方設法在我身上發現問題
I don't know where to go, it's 'cause it
我不知路在何方，這是因為
Feels like I'm losing sleep
感覺像是失眠
I want my mind at ease
我想變得無憂無慮
Feels like I'm losing me
像是失去了本心
I wanna find relief
我想要找到解藥
Feels like I need to breath
像是需要呼吸
I think I'm in too deep, now
我想我現在已墮落到深處
I'm drowning in my thoughts
我快被我的想法淹死
Drowning, by myself
我要把自己淹死
I' m drowning, I need help
我已被淹末，我需要幫助！
I'm drowning, they can't tell
我將要溺死，他們也不會說出
I'm drowning, oh
我快溺死了