I Can't Believe I Died

Yeah
ye
It's really over
真的結束了
I can't believe that I died
我已經死了，難以置信
I do not exist
我不再存在
I am no longer alive
永遠死去
The wood turned to stone
木已化石
Right before my eyes, and
就在我眼前
Now I'm a memory inside of everyone's mind
如今我只是其他人腦海裡的一個印象
I crossed the other side, I am on the other side
我徘徊在路的兩邊
Will I meet God? Was I a matter of time?
我會偶遇上帝嗎？我值得浪費他的時間嗎？
Was my whole life a facade? Where is my mom?
我的一生只是個表面現象嗎，媽媽你在哪兒
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，難以置信
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，難以置信
Wait, damn, I can't even say goodbye
等等，我連再見甚至都說不出來
To my daughter
我的女兒
I wanna hold her right now, and I wanna tell her I love her
我想摟她入懷，告訴她我愛她
I would give everything, I mean every single thing,
我愿賭上我的一切，一切
If it means I could hug her
如果能抱一下她的話
That's a moment I won't get
但那一刻不會到來了吧
I'm feeling so much regret
後悔至極
Life came and went
生活斷斷續續
I wish I would' ve appreciated every moment we spent
但願我能感激當下
Nothing is left, damn
畢竟也沒什麼可以失去的了
My life crashed and burned
生活太糟糕了
Gone forever, I'll never return
無法回頭，一去不復返
I can't imagine the agony my mom is feeling
無法想像我媽現在的痛苦
I know that she's gonna hurt
我知道她很傷心
So will my dad, I know he's gon' break
還有我的爸爸
Damn, I know he's gon' break
哎，他也會傷心的
Not telling both of you how much
沒有告訴你們我有多麼的愛你們
I love you is probably my biggest mistake
是我犯過最大的錯誤
If I could go back in time
如果可以回到過去
I would've did everything different
我的做法會全然不同
I would appreciate life
我會感激活著
And would've actually lived it
並且會好好活
I take my anger inside
將憤怒內化
And give my enemies forgiveness
原諒對手
The anger I held inside
內化內化
Made my life feel like a prison
讓我的生活像監獄一樣
I would've stayed off my phone
遠離手機
I wasted all my time scrolling
我把時間都浪費在刷手機上了
Living my life through a screen
活在虛擬世界
When I should've lived in the moment
當我該享受生活的年紀
Now I'm feeling this regret
現在我真的後悔
And honestly I can't control it
說實話很難控制
'Cause I know that my mother****ing life is over
因為我知道我的生活結束了
And it kills me to know it
得知這一切確實痛苦
And I'm hurt
很痛苦
Yo, all of this hurts
一切的一切都是痛苦的
My daughter needs me
我的女兒需要我
But I' m not around
但我卻不在她身邊
I lie in the dirt
我躺在塵土裡
They always say
他們總是會說：
Don't take life for granted
不要當做理所當然
But it's too late, I no longer have it
但是太晚了，我不再擁有了
And yeah, you can pray
是的，你可以祈禱
But there's no second chances
但是沒有第二次了
But I'm praying
但我仍然時常禱告
Sorry if I'm out of line
對不起，我退出
But I need my life, I'm begging you, please
我需要為自己而活，我求你了上帝
She's gonna be traumatized
她會受傷的
The moment she walks up and she sees
當她醒來的那一天
A coffin where her father lies
她父親的靈柩
And she's gonna scream, and she's gonna weep
她會哭喊，會啜泣
And I don't wanna see her cry
我不想看到她哭
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，難以置信
I reached the end
我走到盡頭了
Damn, I never imagined this
未曾想過到了這一步
The world I'm in
我在的這個平行世界
Stopped, it really went stagnant
停止吧，它真的停滯不前了
I'm so perplexed
我很困惑
Shocked, don't know how to handle it
震驚，不知如何著手處理
Knowing, knowing that I won't get a second chance again
我知道沒有第二次了
Damn
哎
Standing on the other side, I'm by myself
獨自一人
Missing you, realizing that my tears won't help
想著你，我知道眼淚也無濟於事
Always depressed, who saw the best in me
時常情緒低落
Now that I'm gone I rest in peace
我安息吧
My life flashed before my eyes
我的生活在我眼前閃過
I'm wishing for one last time
最後一起祈禱
I never saw my demise
我從未見過自己的死亡
I can't believe I died
無法置信：我死了...