Falling

Yeah
是的
Lately, I'm hurtin' the people who love me the most (Damn)
最近，我在伤害那些最爱我的人（该死）
My emotions take over, it's something I can't control
我的情绪占据了上风，我无法控制
I look in the mirror like where's the me I used to know?
我望向镜子，想看看曾经的那个我在哪里？
Because right now, I can use him the most
因为现在，我非常需要他
Yeah, I can use him the most
是的，我非常需要那个曾经的我
Damn, when did my heart become so bitter and cold? (Cold)
该死的，我的心什么时候变得这么痛苦和冰冷？(冰冷)
When did I start walking down this lonely road? (Road)
我什么时候开始走上这条孤独的路？(路)
There's parts of my life that I'm too afraid to show
我生命中的一些部分，我不敢展示出来
There's parts about me I'm embarrassed to know
还有一些部分，让我自己都感到尴尬
When they stop caring, I started carrying this load
当他们不再关心的时候，我开始背负这个负担
No one understand what my life is like
没有人理解我的生活是什么样子
I'm still looking out for the brightest night
我仍在寻找最明亮的夜晚
I been fighting so much, doubt when I'd try to write
我一直在挣扎，不知道什么时候才能开始创作
I'm paralyzed, and I feel stuck inside my mind
我麻痹了，感觉我被困在了自己的脑海里
You're fearing I'm going crazy, I think I just might
你担心我会疯掉，我想我可能真会疯掉
You should probably stay away and take my advice
你也许应该听从我的建议，远离我
I been through dark days, I can't find a light
我经历过黑暗的日子，找不到一丝光明
If you look at me you wouldn't see a sign of life
如果你看着我，你不会看到任何生命的迹象
I don't know how I got this way, I just am this way
我不知道我怎么会变成那样的，还是我本来就是那样的人
Judge all you want, but you don't know my pain
随你怎么评价，反正你也不会知道我的痛苦
Depression got me feelin' like I can't be saved
抑郁症让我觉得自己无法被拯救
No, I can't be saved
是的，我不能被拯救。
So what if I said, "**** it" and picked up a gauge, and pressed the trigger to my head and blast my brains
那么，如果我说，"去他妈的"，然后拿起一把枪，对着我的头扣动扳机，把我的脑袋打爆，那会怎么样呢？
Actin' like you were there for me, now care for me
假装你曾经在我身边，现在还在关心我
When I'm gone and I'm in my grave, ****
当我走了，我躺在我的坟墓里，他妈的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起来
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因为我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
我很抱歉，我堕落了，我让你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我真的不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我坠落了，我坠落了，我还在坠落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我坠落，我坠落，不停坠落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在坠落，我在坠落，我再一次坠落
I need therapy to figure out what my problem is
我需要心理治疗来弄清楚我的问题
I'm done going online, it's eating away at my confidence
我已经不再上网了，它正在侵蚀我的自信
It's like I search for the hate, and ignore all the compliments
我好像在搜寻仇恨，而忽略了所有的褒奖
I'm done reading the comments 'cause I'm getting tired of it
我也不再看评论了，我已经厌倦了
Yeah, man, I'm getting tired of it
是的，伙计，我已经厌倦了
Damn, when I'm being me I feel like I'm being somebody else (Else)
该死的，当我做我自己的时候，我觉得我是在做别人
I'm surrounded by people, but feel like there's nobody else (Else)
我周围都是人，但却感觉空无一人
Nobody comes to rescue me when I'm calling for help
当我呼救的时候，没有人来救我
I swear my mind is a tormented place, I sit and I dwell, hammer in the nail
我发誓我的思想是一个令人痛苦的地方，我坐着，发着呆，敲打着钉子
How the **** did I garner millions of comments of people telling me I'm great?
我以前是如何获得数百万人的评论，告诉我我很棒的？
But I don't believe it, but I believe in the ones giving me hate
但我却不相信那些赞美我的人，我只相信那些憎恶我的人
It's like I look for validation for an idea in my mind that I already made
这就像我在验证我脑海中本来的想法一样
When did I tell myself I wasn't worthy, I'm undeserving
我什么时候告诉的自己，我不值得，我不配这一切
Let critics hurt me, I feel like a fake
让批评者伤害我吧，我觉得自己就是个骗子
I swear my mind is a trap and my heart is the prey
我发誓我的思想是一个陷阱，我的心就是那个猎物
Someone take my social media away
有人把我的社交媒体拿走了
I'm on it for days, I read and I rage
我已经在刷了好几天了，我越看越愤怒
There's nothing to say, I'm losing my way
没有什么可说的，我正在迷失方向
I'm losing my strength, I'm losing my faith
我正在失去我的力量，我正在失去我的信仰
My insecurities that keep me awake
我的不安全感，让我难以入睡
I'm stuck in this paradigm that I know that I'm dying to escape, damn
我被困在这个模式里，我知道我拼命的想逃离，该死的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起来
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因为我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
我很抱歉，我堕落了，我让你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我坠落了，我坠落了，我还在坠落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我坠落，我坠落，不停坠落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在坠落，我在坠落，我再一次坠落
I'm at war with myself, I'm battling me everyday
我在和我自己战斗，我每天都在和我自己作斗争
And I never win, this is a battle of strength
我从未赢过，这是一场力量的较量
I overthink till I'm numb, I think I need a break
我想得太多直到自己麻木，我想我需要休息一下
Because right know, I'm losing my way
因为我知道，我正在失去我的方向
Yeah, I'm losing my way
是的，我正在迷失
Yeah, I'm causing my misery, and maybe I'm the one to blame (Blame)
是的，我自己造成了自己的痛苦，也许我才是罪魁祸首。
If I feel sorry, that means I don't gotta change (Change)
如果我感到遗憾，这意味着我不必改变（改变）
I'm dealing with demons that I was unwilling to face
我正在和我不愿意面对的恶魔纠缠
I was looking for fame to try to cover the fact
我只是想出名来掩盖事实
That I'm an act, I can't out run from my mistakes
我只是在演戏，我无法逃避我的错误
I'm running from myself, but obviously running away from me is so worthless
我在逃避自己，但显然逃避自己是毫无意义的
I had to pry open my soul, and I had to look way deeper under the surface
我必须撬开我的灵魂，我必须掀开表面看到更深的地方
I should of been me, but instead of being me I was too busy trying to be perfect
我本应该做回我自己，但我没有做到因为我太过于追求完美
Now they want me to be perfect
现在他们想让我变得完美
Faking it's become a burden
而伪装已经成为我的负担
I'm losing my patience, going through phases
我失去了我的耐心，在经历了一些阶段后
I ****ing hate myself
我他妈的恨我自己
Why I am chasing, using my fame when, I can't escape myself?
为什么我都已经无法逃避自己了，还去追逐什么名声？
I'm feeling anxious, who do I blame when, I can't blame myself?
我感到焦虑，如果不能责备自己那我又该责备谁？
Fans said, "I save them", how can I save them?
粉丝们说，"我救了他们"，我怎样才能救他们呢？
I can't save myself, ****
我连自己都救不了，他妈的
Lately, I just wonder if I'll come around
最近，我只是想知道我是否振作起来
'Cause I don't wanna lose me
因为我不想失去自己
I'm sorry that I fallen and I've let you down
对不起，我堕落了，我让你失望了
But I don't wanna lose me
但我不想失去自己
I've falling, I've falling, I fell again
我坠落了，我坠落了，我还在坠落
I fell, I fell, I fell
我坠落，我坠落，不停坠落
I fell, I fell, I'm falling again
我在坠落，我在坠落，我再一次坠落