I Can't Believe I Died

Yeah
ye
It's really over
真的结束了
I can't believe that I died
我已经死了，难以置信
I do not exist
我不再存在
I am no longer alive
永远死去
The wood turned to stone
木已化石
Right before my eyes, and
就在我眼前
Now I'm a memory inside of everyone's mind
如今我只是其他人脑海里的一个印象
I crossed the other side, I am on the other side
我徘徊在路的两边
Will I meet God? Was I a matter of time?
我会偶遇上帝吗？我值得浪费他的时间吗？
Was my whole life a facade? Where is my mom?
我的一生只是个表面现象吗，妈妈你在哪儿
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，难以置信
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，难以置信
Wait, damn, I can't even say goodbye
等等，我连再见甚至都说不出来
To my daughter
我的女儿
I wanna hold her right now, and I wanna tell her I love her
我想搂她入怀，告诉她我爱她
I would give everything, I mean every single thing,
我愿赌上我的一切，一切
If it means I could hug her
如果能抱一下她的话
That's a moment I won't get
但那一刻不会到来了吧
I'm feeling so much regret
后悔至极
Life came and went
生活断断续续
I wish I would've appreciated every moment we spent
但愿我能感激当下
Nothing is left, damn
毕竟也没什么可以失去的了
My life crashed and burned
生活太糟糕了
Gone forever, I'll never return
无法回头，一去不复返
I can't imagine the agony my mom is feeling
无法想象我妈现在的痛苦
I know that she's gonna hurt
我知道她很伤心
So will my dad, I know he's gon' break
还有我的爸爸
Damn, I know he's gon' break
哎，他也会伤心的
Not telling both of you how much
没有告诉你们我有多么的爱你们
I love you is probably my biggest mistake
是我犯过最大的错误
If I could go back in time
如果可以回到过去
I would've did everything different
我的做法会全然不同
I would appreciate life
我会感激活着
And would've actually lived it
并且会好好活
I take my anger inside
将愤怒内化
And give my enemies forgiveness
原谅对手
The anger I held inside
内化内化
Made my life feel like a prison
让我的生活像监狱一样
I would've stayed off my phone
远离手机
I wasted all my time scrolling
我把时间都浪费在刷手机上了
Living my life through a screen
活在虚拟世界
When I should've lived in the moment
当我该享受生活的年纪
Now I'm feeling this regret
现在我真的后悔
And honestly I can't control it
说实话很难控制
'Cause I know that my mother****ing life is over
因为我知道我的生活结束了
And it kills me to know it
得知这一切确实痛苦
And I'm hurt
很痛苦
Yo, all of this hurts
一切的一切都是痛苦的
My daughter needs me
我的女儿需要我
But I'm not around
但我却不在她身边
I lie in the dirt
我躺在尘土里
They always say
他们总是会说：
Don't take life for granted
不要当做理所当然
But it's too late, I no longer have it
但是太晚了，我不再拥有了
And yeah, you can pray
是的，你可以祈祷
But there's no second chances
但是没有第二次了
But I'm praying
但我仍然时常祷告
Sorry if I'm out of line
对不起，我退出
But I need my life, I'm begging you, please
我需要为自己而活，我求你了上帝
She's gonna be traumatized
她会受伤的
The moment she walks up and she sees
当她醒来的那一天
A coffin where her father lies
她父亲的灵柩
And she's gonna scream, and she's gonna weep
她会哭喊，会啜泣
And I don't wanna see her cry
我不想看到她哭
I can't believe that I died
我的心已死，难以置信
I reached the end
我走到尽头了
Damn, I never imagined this
未曾想过到了这一步
The world I'm in
我在的这个平行世界
Stopped, it really went stagnant
停止吧，它真的停滞不前了
I'm so perplexed
我很困惑
Shocked, don't know how to handle it
震惊，不知如何着手处理
Knowing, knowing that I won't get a second chance again
我知道没有第二次了
Damn
哎
Standing on the other side, I'm by myself
独自一人
Missing you, realizing that my tears won't help
想着你，我知道眼泪也无济于事
Always depressed, who saw the best in me
时常情绪低落
Now that I'm gone I rest in peace
我安息吧
My life flashed before my eyes
我的生活在我眼前闪过
I'm wishing for one last time
最后一起祈祷
I never saw my demise
我从未见过自己的死亡
I can't believe I died
无法置信：我死了...