Liar (feat. Alex Marie Brinkley)

I gotta be real with myself
我得面对我自己
I wasn't being real to myself
我对自己不是真实的
I still have scars that run deep and
我身上还有深深的伤疤
I haven't spent any time healing myself
我根本没花时间自愈
No one around could, feel what I felt
周围没有人能感受到我的感受
I felt stuck from putting fear in myself
我觉得自己无法让自己感到恐惧
I'm still getting burned, now I'm steaming in hell
我还在被烧伤，现在我在地狱里冒着热气
God, acting like I'm not screaming for help
天啊，表现得好像我不是在喊救命似的
I, gotta get up
我得起床了
I can feel it in my gut I wanna give up
我的直觉告诉我，我想放弃
I can't trust anyone 'cause everyone switch up
我不能相信任何人，因为每个人都换了
I can't love anyone 'cause everyone slip up
我不能爱任何人，因为每个人都会犯错
It's just me, don't got anyone I can hit up
只有我，没人能帮我联系
All I dreamt of was seeing a stadium fill up
我唯一的梦想就是看到体育场坐满了人
Because of me every light in it gets lit up
因为我，这里的每一盏灯都被点亮了
Changing the world through every lyric I spit up
用我吐出的每句歌词改变世界
But until a, change happens in me I can never change it
但除非我的身体发生改变，否则我无法改变它
I turned fake, I got the balls to say it
我变假了，我有胆量说出来
I was riding waves, tryna get famous
我在游荡，想出名
A million plays, they know what my name is
玩过无数次，他们就知道我的名字了
Now I hate the stress that it all came with
现在我讨厌这一切带来的压力
My anxiety's high and it's mad dangerous
我很焦虑，而且非常危险
I lost my girl, I could never save us
我失去了我的女孩，我再也救不了我们了
Being honest with yourself is the hardest ain't it?
对自己诚实是最难的，不是吗?
It's okay to admit when you're wrong and you're fake
承认自己的错误和虚伪是可以的
It's okay to lose yourself when you make mistake
犯错时失去自我是可以的
It's okay to lose faith after a heart break
心碎之后失去信心是很正常的
I can't say I'm perfect if I did I'm lying to your face
就算我做到了也不能说我是完美的我在对你撒谎
I'm a liar, and I lie everyday, I act like I'm fine but I ain't
我是一个骗子，我每天都在撒谎，我表现得好像我很好，但我不是
Inside I'm dying and I pray, 'cause I'm only human
内心深处，我正在死去，我在祈祷，因为我只是个凡人
Yeah what more can I say? Damn
是的，我还能说什么?该死的
I feel like I found me but I'm lost again, oh oh oh
我感觉我找到了自己，但我又迷失了，哦哦哦
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
我觉得没有朋友我也能做到
I'm a liar, to myself
我对自己说，我是个骗子
I'm a liar, to myself
我对自己说，我是个骗子
I gotta be real with myself
我得面对我自己
I wasn't being real to myself
我对自己不是真实的
I still have scars that run deep and
我身上还有深深的伤疤
I haven't spent any time healing myself
我根本没花时间自愈
No one around could, feel what I felt
周围没有人能感受到我的感受
I felt stuck from putting fear in myself
我觉得自己无法让自己感到恐惧
I'm still gonna burn out steaming in hell
我还是会在地狱里被蒸汽烧坏的
God, acting like I'm not screaming for help
天啊，表现得好像我不是在喊救命似的
I, gotta learn to
我，得学会
Accept the fact that there's no one to turn to
接受没有人可以求助的事实
Accept the fact that the flame we have burned through
接受我们燃尽的火焰的事实
I ****ed up bad, knowing that I don't deserve you
我知道我配不上你，我后悔了
So many problems that we could've sat and worked through
有这么多的问题我们可以坐下来解决
Wishin' that I wasn't the one that had to hurt you
希望不是我伤害了你
So blind to that I didn't see that from your view
我没有从你的角度看出来
And now I'm stuck with pictures that I sit and search through
而现在，我只能坐在那里搜索照片
And I heard you, moved on, and damn it, it's my fault
我听到你说的了，继续生活，该死的，都是我的错
I'm sick of all the damage that I caused
我受够了我造成的伤害
I'm so sick of fricking living inside of my thoughts
我受够了活在自己的想法里
I'm blind to what I have and only see what I've lost
我对我所拥有的视而不见，只看到我所失去的
And I thought, if I blew up, I would be happy
我想，如果我发火了，我会很开心
Well I'm not! So don't even ask me
我不是好!所以别问我
If it looks like I am then I'm probably just acting
如果我看起来像，那我可能只是在演戏
'Cause life is a movie, mine looks like a sad scene
因为生活就像一部电影，我的生活就像一个悲伤的场景
I'm lying to myself when I say I believe
我说我相信是在骗自己
The truth is I didn't even see it in me
事实是，我都没发现自己有这种能力
I would only rhyme if I was feeling a beat
只有当我感觉到节拍时，我才会押韵
When I should just beat this villain in me
我应该打败我内心的坏蛋
In rap's I'd be inner healer to me
在说唱里，我是我内心的疗愈者
I had nobody when I needed to speak
我需要说话的时候，没有人陪我
Hated my life that had no meaning to me
恨我那对我毫无意义的生活
I'm still dealing with these demons in me
我还在对付我体内的恶魔
Thought I was found but, but the real me needed to leave, 'cause
以为我被找到了但是，但是真正的我需要离开，因为
I feel like I found me but I'm lost again, oh oh oh
我感觉我找到了自己，但我又迷失了，哦哦哦
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
我觉得没有朋友我也能做到
I'm a liar, to myself
我对自己说，我是个骗子
I'm a liar, to myself
我对自己说，我是个骗子