Safer

I know that I have issues
我知道我有心理障礙
I face them I swear
我發誓我直面過它們了
Think I overcome them
但每當我認為我戰勝了它們
Then turn - they're still there.
一轉身它們卻還在那裡
Wish that I was different
我也希望自己會變得不同
I'd like to let go
也想要放手
But when I try to change
但每當我試圖改變
There's my past, saying no
我的過去就在抗拒這一切
Maybe it's all 'cause of dad
也許這都是因為爸爸
His new kids his new wife
因為他的新家庭
Or why not just blame mom
又或者是怪媽媽
Who's been nuts my whole life
一直對我神經兮兮的
When you've felt so alone since
當你自出生起
The moment of brith
就倍感孤獨
And you're struggled to find
然後你掙扎著去尋找
Your own true sense of worth
自身的價值
When it seems there is no one
當這整個世界上
Across this whole earth
沒有任何一個人
To depend upon
可以讓你依靠
You carry on
所以你獨自前行
Just like you always do
就像你一直那樣
Cause it's safer to rely on you
因為依靠自己更安全
Oh, it's safer to rely on you
噢是的依靠自己才最安全
Seen a million movies
看過無數次電影
All selling true love
都在鼓吹真正的愛情
Fantasies I'm not sure
和那些我
That I'm worthy of
自覺不配的幻想
Caution to the wind
偶爾也會鋌而走險
My heart's been on display
把內心展示給他人
Still the end result is
但最後的結果
It's not gone my way
仍是不如我所願
So when I date some new guy
所以我與
Who's a deadbeat or jerk
遊手好閒的混蛋約會
At least I'm not so crushed
這樣當感情沒有結果的時候
When it all doesn't work
至少我不會萬念俱灰
When you once unafraid
當你曾經無所畏懼
Wore your heart on your sleeve
毫無保留地敞開心扉
And the ones that you loved
而你愛的人
Chose to just turn and leave
卻選擇轉身離去
Every day it gets harder to
每一天都在變得更加艱難
Somehow believe
但你要讓自己相信
You will survive
你可以堅持下去
So you strive
所以你拼命抗爭
Just to keep up your guard
只為了建起心防
Cause it's safer to hold every card
因為你知道掌控了一切才更安全
Oh, it's safer to hold every card
噢只有掌控這一切才最安全
I feel out of control
我感覺失控
I feel safe on the ground
感覺腳踏實地才安全
I go building up walls
我築起心牆
Yet I wish to be found
但我仍然渴望被拯救
A true contradiction to which I am bound
我注定要這樣自我矛盾
As I keep on spinning around and around
當我不停的自我拉扯
And I look at the people
又看向那些
Who've worked it all out
已經解決這些問題的人的時候
And I wonder why I'm still
我疑惑為什麼我還是
A bundle of doubt
無法解脫
And sometimes I wanna just
有時我只想
Stand up and shout
站起來大喊
Just commit and deal with it
就勇敢作出承諾去解決問題
Before your life flies by
趁你人生飛逝之前
Don't let your life fly by
不要虛度你的一生
But is it safer?
但這真的更安全嗎
Maybe it's safer
也許我站在原地
If I don't try
會更安全