liar (feat. Alex Marie Brinkley)

I gotta be real with myself
我得面對我自己
I wasn't being real to myself
我對自己不是真實的
I still have scars that run deep and
我身上還有深深的傷疤
I haven't spent any time healing myself
我根本沒花時間自愈
No one around could, feel what I felt
周圍沒有人能感受到我的感受
I felt stuck from putting fear in myself
我覺得自己無法讓自己感到恐懼
I'm still getting burned, now I'm steaming in hell
我還在被燒傷，現在我在地獄裡冒著熱氣
God, acting like I'm not screaming for help
天啊，表現得好像我不是在喊救命似的
I, gotta get up
我得起床了
I can feel it in my gut I wanna give up
我的直覺告訴我，我想放棄
I can't trust anyone 'cause everyone switch up
我不能相信任何人，因為每個人都換了
I can't love anyone 'cause everyone slip up
我不能愛任何人，因為每個人都會犯錯
It's just me, don't got anyone I can hit up
只有我，沒人能幫我聯繫
All I dreamt of was seeing a stadium fill up
我唯一的夢想就是看到體育場坐滿了人
Because of me every light in it gets lit up
因為我，這裡的每一盞燈都被點亮了
Changing the world through every lyric I spit up
用我吐出的每句歌詞改變世界
But until a, change happens in me I can never change it
但除非我的身體發生改變，否則我無法改變它
I turned fake, I got the balls to say it
我變假了，我有膽量說出來
I was riding waves, tryna get famous
我在遊蕩，想出名
A million plays, they know what my name is
玩過無數次，他們就知道我的名字了
Now I hate the stress that it all came with
現在我討厭這一切帶來的壓力
My anxiety's high and it's mad dangerous
我很焦慮，而且非常危險
I lost my girl, I could never save us
我失去了我的女孩，我再也救不了我們了
Being honest with yourself is the hardest ain't it?
對自己誠實是最難的，不是嗎?
It's okay to admit when you're wrong and you're fake
承認自己的錯誤和虛偽是可以的
It's okay to lose yourself when you make mistake
犯錯時失去自我是可以的
It's okay to lose faith after a heart break
心碎之後失去信心是很正常的
I can't say I'm perfect if I did I'm lying to your face
就算我做到了也不能說我是完美的我在對你撒謊
I'm a liar, and I lie everyday, I act like I'm fine but I ain't
我是一個騙子，我每天都在撒謊，我表現得好像我很好，但我不是
Inside I'm dying and I pray, 'cause I'm only human
內心深處，我正在死去，我在祈禱，因為我只是個凡人
Yeah what more can I say? Damn
是的，我還能說什麼?該死的
I feel like I found me but I' m lost again, oh oh oh
我感覺我找到了自己，但我又迷失了，哦哦哦
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
我覺得沒有朋友我也能做到
I'm a liar, to myself
我對自己說，我是個騙子
I'm a liar, to myself
我對自己說，我是個騙子
I gotta be real with myself
我得面對我自己
I wasn't being real to myself
我對自己不是真實的
I still have scars that run deep and
我身上還有深深的傷疤
I haven't spent any time healing myself
我根本沒花時間自愈
No one around could, feel what I felt
周圍沒有人能感受到我的感受
I felt stuck from putting fear in myself
我覺得自己無法讓自己感到恐懼
I'm still gonna burn out steaming in hell
我還是會在地獄裡被蒸汽燒壞的
God, acting like I'm not screaming for help
天啊，表現得好像我不是在喊救命似的
I, gotta learn to
我，得學會
Accept the fact that there's no one to turn to
接受沒有人可以求助的事實
Accept the fact that the flame we have burned through
接受我們燃盡的火焰的事實
I ** **ed up bad, knowing that I don't deserve you
我知道我配不上你，我後悔了
So many problems that we could've sat and worked through
有這麼多的問題我們可以坐下來解決
Wishin' that I wasn't the one that had to hurt you
希望不是我傷害了你
So blind to that I didn't see that from your view
我沒有從你的角度看出來
And now I'm stuck with pictures that I sit and search through
而現在，我只能坐在那裡搜索照片
And I heard you, moved on, and damn it, it's my fault
我聽到你說的了，繼續生活，該死的，都是我的錯
I'm sick of all the damage that I caused
我受夠了我造成的傷害
I'm so sick of fricking living inside of my thoughts
我受夠了活在自己的想法裡
I 'm blind to what I have and only see what I've lost
我對我所擁有的視而不見，只看到我所失去的
And I thought, if I blew up, I would be happy
我想，如果我發火了，我會很開心
Well I'm not! So don't even ask me
我不是好!所以別問我
If it looks like I am then I'm probably just acting
如果我看起來像，那我可能只是在演戲
'Cause life is a movie, mine looks like a sad scene
因為生活就像一部電影，我的生活就像一個悲傷的場景
I'm lying to myself when I say I believe
我說我相信是在騙自己
The truth is I didn't even see it in me
事實是，我都沒發現自己有這種能力
I would only rhyme if I was feeling a beat
只有當我感覺到節拍時，我才會押韻
When I should just beat this villain in me
我應該打敗我內心的壞蛋
In rap's I'd be inner healer to me
在說唱裡，我是我內心的療癒者
I had nobody when I needed to speak
我需要說話的時候，沒有人陪我
Hated my life that had no meaning to me
恨我那對我毫無意義的生活
I'm still dealing with these demons in me
我還在對付我體內的惡魔
Thought I was found but, but the real me needed to leave, 'cause
以為我被找到了但是，但是真正的我需要離開，因為
I feel like I found me but I'm lost again, oh oh oh
我感覺我找到了自己，但我又迷失了，哦哦哦
I felt like I could do it without a friend, oh
我覺得沒有朋友我也能做到
I'm a liar, to myself
我對自己說，我是個騙子
I'm a liar, to myself
我對自己說，我是個騙子