Imaginary Illness

You can't see my scars
你從未親眼見到我的瘢痛
It's hard to read my thoughts
難以解透我的心思
I'm feeling
總覺得
Guess they're not real then
一切似幻不真
You believe in God
你信仰上帝
But even God
但上帝甚至
Doesn't show his face
都從未露面
When u need to talk
你急需向人傾訴
I'm still sick
但我依舊頹潰蒼鬱
Imaginary illness
或許是在自作驚嚇
I met the devil in my dreams
夢中與惡魔交面
He said my dreams are what I never will achieve
被他數落道我的夢想都是異想天開
He said I'm never getting better
至生不變淡然一生
And I need to stop using words together like mental and disease
我不該再消極下去
That when hell will ****ing freeze
踏陷暗獄令人心寒
I'm a basket case
我便成了行屍走肉
Maybe I should lock my stupid a*s away
本該洗心革面
Feeling like I'm half-awake from all these pills I have to take
被迫服藥後自己半昏不醒
No one even asks or ****ing wonders if I am ok
但也無人過問
I'm locked inside my head and I just can't escape
欲閉鎖心思卻難以掩守
You can't see my scars
你從未親眼見到我的瘢痛
It's hard to read my thoughts
難以解透我的心思
I'm feeling
總覺得
Guess they're not real then
一切似幻不真
You believe in God
你信仰上帝
But even God
但上帝甚至
Doesn't show his face
都從未露面
When u need to talk
你急需向人傾訴
I'm still sick
但我依舊頹潰蒼鬱
Imaginary illness
或許是在自作驚嚇
I hate parties
不想去湊熱鬧
I hate people
不願與人相處
I hate the kinda friend that only calls u when they need u
討厭那種逢迎不定的朋友
I ****ing hate my bed but never leave it
討厭所處之地卻無可擇選
Like a girl does when she's beaten
我會像身遭不測的女孩一樣
Start to love the pain I'm feeling
試著接受當下的苦痛麻木自己
Feeling numb is not me healing
而並不能因此有絲毫回愈
Someone give me something to live for
誰能將我救贖
I can't wake up to no one then expect me to feel more
仍舊不願自投羅網
I used to dream of seeing my face up on the billboards
曾經還渴求名留歌榜
Now all I want is u to ****ing see what ill for
如今只求看清當下
It's all in your head
這一切讓你全然錯糾
You're always upset
你總是苦悶不樂
You call it disease
難道如你所說這真是病
I call it depressed
我覺得只是太過壓抑了
It's all in your head
這一切將你死死纏住
You're always upset
你總是苦悶不樂
You call it disease
難道如你所說這真是病
I call it depressed
我覺得只是太過壓抑了
It's all in your head
這一切讓你全然錯糾
You're always upset
你總是苦悶不樂
You call it disease
難道如你所說這真是病
I call it depressed
我覺得只是太過壓抑了
It's all in your head
這一切讓你全然錯糾
It's all in your head
這一切將你死死纏住
It's all in your head
這一切讓你全然錯糾
You can't see my scars
你從未親眼見到我的瘢痛
It's hard to read my thoughts
難以解透我的心思
I'm feeling
總覺得
Guess they're not real then
一切似幻不真
You believe in God
你信仰上帝
But even God
但上帝甚至
Doesn't show his face
都從未露面
When u need to talk
你急需向人傾訴
I'm still sick
但我依舊頹潰蒼鬱
Imaginary illness
或許是在自作驚嚇