Thoughts

Thoughts
奇思妙想
Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts
我有時會控制不了自己的想法
No medication's ever made them stop
沒有藥物能抑制那些思緒
All I think about is everything I'm not
我滿腦袋都是我無法擁有的東西
Instead of everything I've got
而不是我所有擁有的一切
'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing
因為我畏懼他們正在吃吃嘲笑著我
So I make the joke first
所以我會先開個玩笑
If I beat 'em to the punchline
如果我搶先笑出聲
Then I can't get hurt
我就不會受到傷害
Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying
我向上帝起誓，我正在盡力改變著
But I don't know how to be
但是我真的不知如何
How to be a good friend to me
如何跟自己和解
'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak
因為有時我感覺自己就是個怪咖
When I wake up, I just don't like what I see
我睜開雙眼時，我無法喜歡我的所見
All the way from my head right down to my feet
從頭到腳都無法喜歡
Wish that I felt differently
希望有一天我會有不同的感受
But I'm scared they're all laughing
但是我畏懼著他們的吃吃嘲笑
So I make the joke first
所以我會先開個玩笑
If I beat 'em to the punchline
如果我比他們搶先笑起來
Then I can't get hurt
我就不會感覺受傷
Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying
我向上帝起誓，我正在努力著適應
But I don't know how to be
我只是不知如何
How to be a good friend to me
如何與自己成為朋友
Change
改變
Wonder if I'll ever really change
幻想著未來的某一天我是否真的會有所改變
'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing
因為我害怕他們的嘲笑聲
So I make the joke first
所以我會先開玩笑
If I beat 'em to the punchline
搶先笑出聲
Then I can't get hurt
那樣我會好受點
Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying
我向上帝起誓，我正在努力改變著
But I don't know how to be
我只是不知如何
How to be a good friend to
如何和自己和解
The voice inside my head that's telling me I'm okay
我腦海中盤旋的聲音告訴我，我可以
Entertain it for a second, then I push it away
考慮了一會兒，還是將這個想法放棄
Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying
我向上帝起誓
But I don't know how to be
我只是不知
How to be a good friend to me
不知如何與自己和解
Thoughts
思緒萬千
Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts
有時，我就是無法控制自己的思緒