Vacation

I dont know how to be

What I wanted to be when I was 5
Sometimes blue eyes sometimes green

Bike rides
Snow hikes and christmas lights
Sometimes freezing sometimes warm

I dont know if I can love that anymore

Cuz I got it all
I got it all mistaken

For a meaningful life and a fun family vacation

Like when I used to ride roller coasters with my dad

When a swimming pool in a hotel
Was a gift

From God

Like love or like a family

I dont know how to be

Mmaybe I just wanna get married

Maybe I just wanna fall asleep

But at least I know that the world is spinning
When were tangled in the bedsheets

And at least I know that my mom is breathing
When we talk on the phone

And at least I know that my house
Wont burn down down to the ground
Or maybe it will

If Ive been in love before and Im pretty sure
I have
Im pretty sure that my house can burn down down
To the ground tomorrow
If Ive been in love before
And I know that I have
Then I know that my house can burn
Down down to the ground tomorrow