Stan (Recorded at Spotify Studios NYC)

My teas gone cold
人走茶涼
Im wondering why I got out of bed at all
我不知道為什麼我總是難以入眠
The morning rain cloud touched my window
密雨斜侵
And I cant see at all
我什麼都看不見
And even if I could it would all be gray
一片灰暗
I put your picture on my wall
只有牆上你的相片
It reminds me that its not so bad its not so bad
還安慰著我似乎一切並不那麼糟
Dear Slim I wrote you but you
我記著給你寫信，Slim
Still aint callin
可你毫無音訊
I left my cell my pager and
我記得我在信尾
My home phone at the bottom
留下了我的地址、姓名和電話
I sent two letters back in
那個秋日我在信中寫了好多話給你
Autumn you must notve got em
可從來沒有回音
There probably was a problem
大概哪裡搞錯了吧
At the post office or somethin
也許是郵局還是別的問題
Sometimes I scribble addresses too sloppy when I jot em
有時我老把地址寫的很潦草隨意
But anyways f**k it whats been up man hows your daughter
那又如何呢你的女兒過得怎麼樣
My girlfriends pregnant too Im bout to be a father
我的女友懷孕了所以我也快要成為一個父親了就像你一樣
If I have a daughter guess what Ima call her
要是也是個女孩你猜我會給她起個什麼名字呢
Ima name her Bonnie
我會叫她Bonnie吧
I read about your Uncle
當我知道你的叔叔Ronnie的事情
Ronnie too Im sorry
我陰鬱許久
I had a friend kill himself over
我有個哥們他自殺了
Some b***h who didnt want him
因為他被一個賤貨女人拋棄了
I know you probably hear this
也許你每天聽這樣的故事而厭煩
Every day but Im your biggest fan
但我還是忍不住對你講
I even got the underground
我甚至弄到了
S**t that you did with Skam
你和Skam一起創作的地下音樂
I got a room full of your
我將我的房間貼滿了關於你的一切
Posters and your pictures man
海報照片周邊
I like the s**t you did
我迷戀你的音樂
With Rawkus too that s**t was phat
尤其是和Rawkus合作的曲目
Anyways I hope you get this
無論怎樣我真是希望你能看到我寫的這些文字
Man hit me back
我渴望著你的回信
Just to chat truly yours
即便是簡單的寒暄
Your biggest fan this is Stan
我是Stan 你最最忠實的粉絲
My teas gone cold
茶湯漸涼
Im wondering why I got out of bed at all
我的心也冷了
The morning rain cloud touched my window
雨水擊打窗櫺
And I cant see at all
我的心也蒙上了灰
And even if I could it would all be gray
彷彿我的世界一片灰暗
I put your picture on my wall
還好有滿牆的你的照片
It reminds me that its not so bad
讓我心安一些
Its not so bad
也許沒那麼糟
Dear Slim you still aint called or
你還是沒有回我的信，Slim
Wrote hope you have a chance
我殷切期盼你的回應
I aint mad I just think its
其實我沒有生氣
F**ked up you dont answer fans
只是覺得不給歌迷回信還挺讓人糟糕的
If you dont wanna to talk
如果
To me outside your concert
你實在不想在台下理我
You didnt have to
那至少
But you coulda signed an autograph for Matthew
應該為Matthew簽個名唄
Thats my little brother
那是我弟弟
Man hes only six years old
他只有六歲
We waited in the blisterin cold
我們在寒風里瑟瑟發抖
For you for four hours
等了好久好久
And you just said no
可你只是說了聲不
Thats pretty shitty man
這真讓人討厭
Youre like his f**kin idol
他竟然還把你當成他的偶像
He wants to be just like you man
他想成為你那樣的人
He likes you more than I do
你比我還要迷戀你
I aint that mad though
我沒那么生氣
I just dont like being lied to
就是討厭被欺騙的感覺
Remember when we met in Denver
我還記得我們在Denver偶遇
You said if Id write you
你說要是我寫信給你
You would write back
你肯定會回信
See Im just like you in a way
看吧我們在某方面挺相似的
I never knew my father neither
我從不知道我的父親是誰
He used to always cheat
他總是背著我媽在外面亂搞
On my mom and beat her
還常常虐待她
I can relate to what youre sayin
我總是能在你的歌裡
In your songs
找到我的影子
So when I have a shitty day
於是那些低沉陰鬱的日子裡
I drift away and put em on
我總是聽著這些歌飆車
Cause I dont really got s**t else
因為
So that s**t helps when Im depressed
只有你的歌能走進我的心
I even got a tattoo of your
我甚至
Name across the chest
在胸口紋上了你的名字
Sometimes I even cut myself
我有時會自殘
To see how much it bleeds
來看看我到底能流多少血
Its like adrenaline
挺刺激的
The pain is such a sudden rush for me
那種真實的痛感一陣陣襲來
See everything you say is real
是啊你說得都對呢
And I respect you cause you tell it
我尊重你因為你願意說那些話
My girlfriends jealous cause
連我的女友都在嫉妒你
I talk about you ２４７
因為我無時不刻都在談論你
But she dont know you like I know you
但她一點丟不了解你
Slim no one does
沒人能
She dont know what it was like
他們根本不會懂
For people like us growin up
不懂我們這樣成長的人
You gotta call me man
你得回我
Ill be the biggest fan youll ever lose
不然你會失去你最最忠實的粉絲
Sincerely yours Stan
你的歌迷Stan
PS we should be together too
（我們應該走在一起
My teas gone cold
茶水已涼
Im wondering why I got out of bed at all
輾轉反側難以入眠
The morning rain cloud touched my window
清晨的雨淅淅瀝瀝
And I cant see at all
我已看不清這個世界
And even if I could it would all be gray
我的世界是灰色的就像我的心也是灰色
I put your picture on my wall
唯獨那些你的照片
It reminds me that its not so bad
點亮微光
Its not so bad
溫暖著我的心
And the story isnt over, but I have to tell the truth
故事還沒結束但真相即將揭曉
I know I couldnt do it justice, only one who could is you
我知道我做不到公正地評判而這只有你能
Because I idolized you Marshall, and nobody understands
因為我十分崇拜你Marshall 也沒有人理解我為什麼如此癡狂
Maybe Im a little crazy, maybe I am just like Stan, damn
也許我有點狂熱過頭也許我就是那個Stan