Darkness

I never really thought I'd get lost in the darkness,
tell another lie, tell me that I'm heartless,
I'm a looking glass, you can see through me.
Tell me that we're friends, but you never were a friend to me.
Mr cellophane, all I ever know is pain,
you all laughed as I cried, then forgot my name.
you all laughed as I died on the inside,
you don't wanna see what I'm like on the inside.
They never really tell you bout going to a dark place.
“I love you” doesn't help all the mistakes.
You could hear the words but you're staring at a blank space,
if I need help, bet you wouldn't show face.
I need help, bet you wouldn't visit my grave.
When I'm not useful, I just get replaced.
When I'm not smiling, I just get no texts.
Useless, wrap a noose on my neck.

You never did what you said,
and now I feel like Im dead,
I just wanted you here,
so we could fix all this shit,
I never wanna love you too much,
but I did, I did, I did.

Nothings making sense inside my head I feel so lost again,
all I do is ring to make me feel like Im myself again.
I wish you were here to help me be someone I wanna be,
Im just lost inside and all I do is write about this shit.

Im dealing with anxiety,
I feel like its a part of me,
I feel so ****ing clueless, jumping to conclusions, I think that Im numb.
Im dealing with anxiety,
I feel like its a part of me,
I feel so ****ing clueless, jumping to conclusions, I think that Im numb.