Better In My Head

I love in
Physical touch
I need it too much, at this point it's a habit
For me to
Go to his place
Then walk in with shame and wishing that hadn't
If I
Think that's what I really need then
Why
Do I feel bitter when I leave
'Cause I'll go to his place
Then walk in with shame and wish it never happened

I'm desperate
For someone just to hold me for a second
'Cause I get kinda lonely then regret
Spending nights in someone else's bed
When they wouldn't even notice if I left
I'm a mess when
I'm trading my emotions for attention
Giving up but that's not what I get
Maybe I should touch myself instead
'Cause they're always fu*king better in my head
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head

I think that
Intimacy
Is all that I need, but it's so hard to find it
It's always
They're not into me
They tell me to leave, I'm constantly reminded (Oh, that)
That goodbye
Only means a new confession
25 and I'm still learning stupid lessons
Intimacy
Is all that I need, but how do you define it? (How do you define it?)

I'm desperate
For someone just to hold me for a second
'Cause I get kinda lonely then regret
Spending nights in someone else's bed
When they wouldn't even notice if I left
I'm a mess when
I'm trading my emotions for attention
Giving up but that's not what I get
Maybe I should touch myself instead
'Cause they're always fu*king better in my head (Always fu*king better in my)
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head (Always fu*king better in my)
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head

I go through the motions
I push then I pull him
I know I should just go to bed
Can't help that I'm hopeless
And know where it's going
But maybe just let me pretend

I'm desperate
For someone just to hold me for a second (Hold me for a second)
'Cause I get kinda lonely then regret (Regret)
Spending nights in someone else's bed
When they wouldn't even notice if I left (Oh)
I'm a mess when
I'm trading my emotions for attention (I'm trading my emotions)
Giving up but that's not what I get
Maybe I should touch myself instead
'Cause they're always fu*king better in my head
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head (Always fu*king better in my)
Better in my he-he-head he-he-head he-he-he-head (They're always fu*king)
Better in my