Two Letters

I know I know I should be better
I think I am to some degree
I can't explain why it gets harder
The more people count on me
Maybe it's all in my head
And nothing's changed
And I'm still in the basement
With no tattoos or mortgage payments
Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
It takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you now
I don't know what I should call you now
I don't believe that anyone runs
From their past so easily
Unless they run towards someone else and
I've seen you lacing up for years
I guess your future looks great
Well good for you
You're still my inspiration
But less in tune and more abrasive
Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
It takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you now
I don't know what I should call you now
Ex sounds dirty I can't say it
Sounds so final and I'm still praying
For the words for the better
Nothing now just two letters
Hope you understand
I'm not prepared to call you just a friend
Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
Well I'm not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call younow
Well not so good with tenses
I'm tensing up thinking about
What I'm supposed to call you now
And it takes a lot to shake me
My body breaks to figure out
How to leave the past behind
When it surrounds all of the time
And I don't know what I should call you
I don't know what I should call you
I don't know what I should call you now