HAPPY

Dear God, please
亲爱的上帝 请
Hear me out, I know it's been a couple years
听我说完 我知道你我相识已有几年
Since I've reached
那初见的主动与问候
Out and said hello, I bet you're wondering
好似仍历历在目 我肯定你在想
Why I keep
为什么我总是
Obsessing on and stressing all the little things
对一点一滴都耿耿于怀
When I should be
我本应该
Living life and soaking up the memories
活在当下 沉浸在回忆中

I know I've been
我知道一直以来
Selfish, I have
我都很自私 我没有
No excuse to give you it's true
借口搪塞你说这是事实
Hanging by a
岌岌可危的生活
Thread's how I live
对我来说是家常便饭
I don't know why but
我不知为何
I feel more comfortable
却愈发舒适惬意

Livin' in my agony
我活在痛苦中
Watching my self-esteem
看我的自尊
Go up in flames acting
灰飞烟灭 装作
Like I don't
毫不在意
Care what anyone else thinks
别人的想法
When I know truthfully
当我知道那其实
That that's the furthest thing
与我的感受
From how I
大相径庭
Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
犹如遥不可及 可我太过骄傲 不敢敞开心扉 请求你
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
带我走 脱离往日将我深深困住的洞穴
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine
的确 我需要有人伸出援手 但我无法想象
Who I'd be if I was happy
那个快乐的我 是什么模样

Yeah, been this way so long, it feels like something's off
这条路走得太久 似乎有些不尽如人意
When I'm not depressed
而我不再忧愁之时
I got some issues that I won't address
有些问题未得解决
I got some baggage I ain't opened yet
有些行李尚未启封
I got some demons I should put to rest
有些心魔应被驱尽
I got some traumas that I can't forget
有些创伤难以忘怀
I got some phone calls I been avoidin'
有些来电总被回避
Some family members I don't really connect with
有些家人 并无真正亲近之感
Some things I said I wish I would of not let slip
我言语失当
Some hurtful words that never should of left my lips
伤人恶语 不该宣之于口
Some bridges burned, I'm not ready to rebuild yet
破釜沉舟的过往 尚未准备好重新来过
Some insecurities I haven't dealt with, yes
些许内心的不安也尚未排解
I'll be the first to admit that I'm a lonely soul
我大方坦言孤独是我的标签
And the last to admit I need a hand to hold
却始终不肯承认需要有人牵起我的手
Losing hope
逐渐失去希望
Headed down a dangerous road
我走在一条危险的路上
Strange, I know
我知道这虽然有些奇怪
But I feel most at home when I'm
但那最舒适自在的地方 仍是这条路上

Livin' in my agony
我活在痛苦中
Watching my self-esteem
看我的自尊
Go up in flames acting
灰飞烟灭 装作
Like I don't
毫不在意
Care what anyone else thinks
别人的想法
When I know truthfully
当我知道那其实
That that's the furthest thing
与我的感受
From how I
大相径庭
Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
犹如遥不可及 可我太过骄傲 不敢敞开心扉 请求你
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
带我走 脱离往日将我深深困住的洞穴
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine
的确 我需要有人伸出援手 但我无法想象
Who I'd be if I was happy
那个快乐的我 是什么模样

Don't know what's around the bend
不知道转弯处有些什么
Don't know what my future is
不清楚我的未来是什么
But I can't keep on livin' in
但我不能再这样下去

Livin' in my agony
我活在痛苦中
Watching my self-esteem
看我的自尊
Go up in flames acting
灰飞烟灭 装作
Like I don't
毫不在意
Care what anyone else thinks
别人的想法
When I know truthfully
当我知道那其实
That that's the furthest thing
与我的感受
From how I
大相径庭
Feel but I'm too proud to open up and ask ya
犹如遥不可及 可我太过骄傲 不敢敞开心扉 请求你
To pick me up and pull me out this hole I'm trapped in
带我走 脱离往日将我深深困住的洞穴
The truth is, I need help, but I just can't imagine
的确 我需要有人伸出援手 但我无法想象
Who I'd be if I was happy
那个快乐的我 是什么模样
If I was happy
那个幸福的我
If I was happy
是什么模样