Fade

I can't believe I got as far as I have without the help that you said you'd give me
Different life and I might be thanking you for sticking with me
But I guess that it's all for the best, mom was correct
I been cursed since seventeen but since my birth I've been blessed
Now I have to go and get these feelings off of my chest
Hasn't made the feeling better but it's bringing in checks
Every day is a struggle and every night is a test
I know one day I will blow up, it just ain't happened yet
I just stay in my home when all homies already left
They chasing dreams or chasing knowledge, just acquiring debt
And they only come around when they see you at your best
And I'm sorry that I yelled, I'm just so ****ing upset
I'm so tired of feeling like I'm just wasting my breath
Like I'm screaming at a being that I ain't never met
Like God above abandoned me, He knows I'm a threat, yeah
Maybe when I'm judged I'll find some solace in death, what
I know you don't need me
Would you please just let me down easy?
When you leave, what do you do?
It's obvious it meant nothing to you
Couldn't care less, I see right through you
When I'm alone I think of you
You know I'm just a person, we get what we deserving
I'll show that art is burden, now that I been deserted
Didn't say that I'm perfect, didn't even say I'm worth it
I just thought that maybe you'd give a **** that I'm clearly hurting
Working on a different version of who I was
I gave everything I have, it seems it's never enough
[?] with the homies going out of our minds
[?] and someone's gone and got me down in my prime
I can't believe I got as far as I have without you there, you never cared
And I knew it, I blew it, it's so ****ing rare
To find a genuine love that when you [?] you know that it's real
But I'm better off alone, I'm gonna die on a hill
Confined in my head, all I want is all I need
But in the end I always seem to get the better of me
And I can tell you got somewhere better to be
In the end I know there's always someone better than me, cool
I know you don't need me
Would you please just let me down easy?
When you leave, what do you do?
It's obvious it meant nothing to you
Couldn't care less, I see right through you
When I'm alone I think of you
You know I'm just a person
I'll show that art is burden
I'll show the art is burning
Now that I've been deserted, ay, yeah