My Disguise

There is nothing like the unfamiliar air
It brings me back to when this all made sense
Bitter, depressed; staring back at death
I'm pushing myself to the edge over what happens next
The pain, the cost; destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change, we sought, compelling us to rot
I never said I'm the only one
Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself, you owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help
In my head, I rewind
Falling away, from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright
While we starve to feel alive
In my head, I rewind
Falling away, away, away from my disguise
There's nothing there, to hold me back
I'm not defined by the things I lack
I often think of the nights, I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what, it's like to want to die
I have the heart to forgive, but how could I forget
The way you shut me out, when I chose to let you in?
Fight till there's nothing left
You have much more to give
You owe it to yourself, you owe it to yourself
There's nothing wrong with asking for help
In my head, I rewind
Falling away, from my disguise
Am I dead or lost in time?
I'm trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light
We say we feel alright
While we starve to feel alive
In my head, I rewind
Falling away, away, away from my disguise
Fight, though we struggle, I trust
That this war is not the end
My curse is not my crutch
My curse is not my crutch
I often think of the nights, I stared into your eyes
And you would tell me what, it's like to want to die
But now I know how you felt, when you recalled those days
You almost left this place, I finally feel your pain
The pain, the cost; destruction of the thought
To take account for everything that I've lost
The change, we sought, compelling us to rot
I never said I'm the only one
We say we feel alright
While we starve to feel alive
In my head I rewind
Falling away, away, away from my disguise