worried

Whxami:
Said I've been away for awhile
距我離你而去已經有一段時間了
And now I still don't know how I'ma go about it
現在我混亂的思緒無處安放
So whatchu know about it?
你能感同身受嗎？
Well ain't it perfect?
我從屋頂上墜亡
I fell through the tiles
這樣的方式不是很完美嗎？
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
猩紅的血液流向四周
My arms are cold and bloody
手臂冰冷鮮血淋漓
And I've been distant for a very long time
我早已覺得人生不值得
I still don't know how she feel about me
但我還是不知道她有沒有動心
I get to thinking about it
我開始思索我該如何消逝
Well ain't it perfect?
我從屋頂上墜亡
I fell through the tiles
這樣的方式不是很完美嗎？
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
血流成河
This is my suicide, I guess she know
我想我的自殺，她會知道的
I've been worried being broke
我一直都在擔心某天我會支離破碎
Worried being alone
擔心我會孤獨終老
Worried I'ma die young
擔心我會英年早逝
And suffer if I grow old
年歲增長痛苦加劇
And I'm tired of these nights spent crying
我厭倦了靠淚水熬過的漫漫黑夜
While I justify it for why I never pick up the phone
當我為自己從不接電話的原因辯護時
You wanted me to be honest, well then baby you got it
你希望我能坦誠，那麼寶貝，你做到了
Everyone afraid to die is somehow suicidal
每個害怕死亡的人都有自殺傾向
And I spend a lot time in my head tryna fight it
我花了數不清的時間去嘗試和心魔抗衡
Fxck it, I ain't keeping secrets to myself
對不起，我沒能藏住那個黑暗的自己
What's the problem? I've been worried about my health, my obsessive order
是什麼讓我身陷困境？
Worried I'ma never prove everybody else wrong
我一直都在擔心我的身體，擔心我的強迫症
That I can do the sh1t I want, fxck following orders
擔心我從來不會證明別人都錯了
Worried that I'm just a joke stuck wallowing off
我可以做任何我想做的事，不屑於循規蹈矩
My depressive mindset just wanna let go
但我怕到頭來我只是一個愚蠢至極的笑話
And I'm tired of the fact it's hard trying to fix artists, so I'm off this
我的抑鬱心態就想對一切的一切徹底放手
This is me, isn't this what you wanted?
我厭倦了要成為藝術家的困難重重，
So I thought , and I'm lost, tell where is you goin'?
所以我選擇放棄
Said I've been away for awhile
這就是真實的我，這是你想要的那個我嗎？
And now I still don't know how I'ma go about it
我想，我已經迷失了自我，你能否告訴我怎樣去到你的身邊？
So whatchu know about it?
距我離你而去已經有一段時間了
Well ain't it perfect?
而我還是不知道我該怎樣做
I fell through the tiles
你能感同身受嗎？
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
我從屋頂上墜落
My arms are cold and bloody
這不是完美的自殺方式嗎？
And I've been distant for a very long time
血液匯成血泊
I still don't know how she feel about me
手臂冰冷鮮血淋漓
I get to thinking about it
我早已感到人生不值得
Well ain't it perfect?
但我還是不知道她有沒有對我動心
I fell through the tiles
我開始思索
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
我從屋頂墜亡的自殺方式
This is my suicide, I guess she know
難道不是完美的嗎？
Lil Xtra:
血液飛濺，染紅我的四周
Yeah, I know I've been distant
我想我的自殺，她會知道的
I tried to listen to the words that you said
But I'm feeling resistant
是的，我知道我一直都與世界疏遠
Black hole of emotions, my whole existence
我嘗試著去傾聽你的話語
I deserve everything but forgiveness
但我有點抗拒
Earning my way, but I can't buy health
我的存在就是感情的黑洞
Depressing the impressions of givin' in the wealth
一切都是我應得的，唯獨不包括寬恕
Everyone searching for the man himself
自食其力，但我卻買不到健康
Tryna find another path to the way that we felt
壓抑著被施捨的感受
Through the drugs and the sex and the life I lived
每個人都在尋找著真正的自己
To be honest, I ain't really got much to give
嘗試著找到我們真正想走的路
Abridged my life story to save the kids
dupin，性，這就是我一團糟的生活
And I don't even know what the problem is
說實話，我真的沒有多少可以給予
But I know that I'm done smoking mids
為了給孩子們一個反面教材，我節錄了我的人生故事
I'm done being broke with no accomplishments
而我甚至不知道問題到底出在哪裡
I'm done being a joke to your accomplices
但我戒菸了
And now I'm rolling smoke with confidence
我受夠了一文不名的日子
Because I know myself, and I know the way that I am
我不想再和你的同夥周旋
Motherfxcker, come and make my day
煙霧繚繞，自信歸來
Y'all laughed, tryna say that I won't make my way
只因我了解我自己，我清清楚楚的知道我是誰
So don't ask about the motherfxcking cash I make
tmd,來讓我高興一下
I'm doing fine
你們都在譏笑，你們想說我永遠不會成功是嗎
Don't know your name, I'm just tryna make mine
所以就別來問我賺了多少鈔票
You're all the same and I'm done being nice
我一切都好
Fxck being famous, your soul is the price
我根本不關心你姓甚名誰，我只想做好我自己的事
I hope that I'm wrong but I'm probably right
你們都是同類，而我是不友善的那一個
So I 'm iso'
要想成名，你的靈魂就是代價
I might go get psycho
我希望我所說的都是錯的，但我言之有道
'Cause I 'm ice cold
所以我的話不無道理
You might know that I fight so let's cut it
我可能要瘋了吧
Making my music is all that I got these days
因為我如冰一樣寒冷
I feel no embrace, I can't see your face
你也許知道我內心的掙扎，我們讓這一切停止吧
Whxami:
這些天我唯一能做的就是寫歌
Said I've been away for awhile
我感受不到擁抱，我看不清你的臉龐
And now I still don't know how I'ma go about it
So whatchu know about it?
距我離你而去已經有一段時間了
Well ain't it perfect?
而我還是不知道怎樣做
I fell through the tiles
你能感同身受嗎？
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
我從屋頂墜亡
My arms are cold and bloody
這樣的自殺方式完美嗎？
And I've been distant for a very long time
鮮血凝固在我的四周
I still don't know how she feel about me
手臂冰冷鮮血淋漓
I get to thinking about it
我早已對人世沒有了眷戀
Well ain't it perfect?
但我還是想知道她有沒有對我心動
I fell through the tiles
我不禁去想
I'm bleeding out onto the floor around me
我從屋頂墜亡的自殺方式
This is my suicide, I guess she know
是不是足夠完美？