appointments

I'm staying in tonight
今晚我將會留下
I won't stop you from leaving
不管你會不會走
I know that I'm not what you wanted, am I
我知道你不想要這個我對吧？
You wanted someone who I used to be like
你想要我從前那個我
now you think I'm not trying
你認為現在不夠努力
don't argue, it's not worth the effort to lie
不用爭了感情不值得說謊
You don't want to bring it up
你不想再提起
and I already know how it looks
我也已經知道那有多糟糕了
you don't have to remind me so much how I disappoint you
你不用再提醒我你對我有多失望
Suggest that I talk to somebody again
你叫我去向別人傾訴
who knows how to help me get better until then
又有誰知道如何讓我振作起來
I should just try not to miss anymore appointments
我不該再錯過任何約會了
I think if I ruin this
幻想著如果我毀掉這些
then I know I can live with it
我就可以在荒蕪中繼續殘喘了
nothing turns out like I picture it maybe the emptiness is just a lesson in canvases
現實偏離了心中構想的美麗藍圖就把留白也當作是繪畫的一種美吧
I think if I fail again , that I know you're still listening
就算我再次失敗我知道你還是會不厭其煩聽我傾訴
maybe its all gonna turn out alright
也許一切都會好起來的
I know that its not but I have to believe that it is
我知道就算沒有希望還是要試著讓自己繼續憧憬
I know that its not gonna turn out alright but I have to believe that it is
我知道就算沒有可能還是要對自己謊稱有希望
when I tell you that it is, its more for my benefit
找你傾訴是多麼自私的一件事
Maybe its all gonna turn out alright, I know that its not
一切都會好起來的我知道就算沒有可能
but I have to believe that it is.
還是要騙過自己