Sinner

So much shit goin'on right now
身邊太多煩心事正發生
Way too much
太多太多
When I speak it's like ya'll don't hear
我的話人們從不在意
Why I feel like God don't care
為什麼連上帝也這樣
Why I feel like I ain't good as no one else
為什麼我總比別人糟
I'm searching but my pride ain't there
我很迷惘，但並不在意這些
I just feel like life ain't fair
只是覺得人生不公
My boy got shot died right there
兄弟在槍林彈雨中就倒在我的面前
But me I died twice and came back to life
而我，逃脫了死神的魔抓苟活在世
So tell me how can I be scared
還怕什麼呢？
Why do I gotta doubt myself
為什麼總要自我質疑
All ever do is doubt myself
如此而已，這就是我曾經所做的一切
Drink liquor till the head gets consumed by the pint like
一杯杯狂飲不止，直到大腦被徹底麻痺
I don't care about my health
根本不在乎什么生命
Really I'm just trying to numb the pain
真的，只是想麻痺心中的痛苦
Love and hate it all just feels the same
這樣愛與恨也就沒有了區別
Won't say I'm affected by the fame
也根本不在乎是否功成名就
But even my momma know I changed
就連我媽媽都知道我像變了個人似的
So I get drunk till I can't feel
一杯又一杯，直到自己被徹底麻痺
The love fake the pain real
曾經愛的那麼不切實際，而現在痛的卻那麼刻骨銘心
Got so many scars it ain't heal
留下了太多不可癒合的傷疤
But I gotta soul bullets can't kill
但我卻得到了刀槍不入的靈魂
Why I feel like cops just want to pop me
為什麼條子要對我懷有惡意
Pop's never had a pot to piss in
老爸這輩子一貧如洗
Probably pack a nine on his hip then sit beside me
或許坐在我身邊，褲子裡卻藏滿的毒品
Pray to God there's no triple six inside me
祈禱上帝能讓我成一個好人
No I can't let the devil in mind
不，不能讓惡魔侵蝕我的靈魂
Same time the church will tum you blind
與此同時，宗教讓我徹底迷失方向
Last time I heard a preacher preach a sermon
上次，我聽了牧師的佈道
All I heard him say was sinner's going to die
聽到的都是罪人只配下地獄
And they will never get to see a Heaven
永遠不配到天堂
With all due respect fuck the reverend
去你們的虔誠，這就是我對你們的尊重
Cause I know life is doing 25
因為我知道終身監禁是25年起
Praying for early death like it's a blessing
祈求早些死吧，就想平時做的禱告
This for my people going through depression
這首歌送給那些飽受壓抑的人們
This for the kids who never felt affection
送給缺少關愛的孩子們
This for the kids whose parents don't accept them
送給那些不被家長看好的孩子們
Saying they love everyone else except them
口頭上說對孩子們好，實際對孩子們卻不管不顧
I know what it's like to feel alone
我懂孤獨的感覺
I know what it's like to need a home
我懂無家可歸的感覺
I know what it's like to not know what it's like
我懂那種感覺
To have a love you can call your own
那種沒人愛的孩子們的感覺
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
我試過所有的藥物
Trust me man it don't help
信我，絲毫沒用
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I' m losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
Why I feel like love don't last
為什麼愛總是那麼脆弱
Things change when you move so fast
世事變遷，從此大不一樣
I was trying to focus on us in the future
我著眼未來
You was focused on my past
而你卻一直盯著過去
If you left I would lose my soul
如果你感覺靈魂正在離我而去
Promise me that you won't let go
答應我，別放棄我
See I just need love it's funny I got all money but my heart still broke
你知道嗎，我需要的僅僅是愛。我曾得到一切，但我的心卻依就冰冷
So many times I said I’ma change
曾幾何時，我試著改變
Just to turn around and do the same
但都徒勞無功，毫無改變
Same shit that's been putting you in pain
還是一樣的理由，把你推進痛苦
I know I'm the only one to blame
我知道我有罪
So I get drunk till I can't see
所以我一杯又一杯，知直到雙眼朦朧
I love you but I hate me
我愛你，但卻恨我現在的自己
Trying to be someone I can't be
試著去做一個不缺實際的人
And I ain't been myself lately
但最終迷失還是自己
Why I feel like I'm the only one that got me
為什麼我到了孤芳自賞的程度
You could take the same 45 that shot me
你應該拿起槍，朝我射擊
Pop the clip in,cock it back and put that motherfucker to my head,you'll never stop my
就算你裝彈，上膛，打爆我的頭，也無法阻止我
Yeah I be living life on the edge
是，我生活在崩潰的邊緣
Suicide all in my head
滿腦子想的都是死
Why the world don't care about one else's life till they already dead
為什麼沒人關心瀕臨崩潰，正一步步走向死亡的人
I just wish pops was back to how he was
我只希望老爸能回到原來的樣子
Cause he ain't been the same since the drugs
沾染毒品的他與之前判若兩人
And I ain't been the same since he said the worst form of pain is not being loved
他說最大的痛苦莫過於失去被愛的權利
So we use the drugs they gave to us
所以我把他給我藥全部吞下
To replace the love the world takes from us
試著找回那些曾經失去的愛
Lately I don't even know who to trust
最終我卻不知道我該去相信什麼
They saying even Satan was an angel once
如今的撒旦過去也可能是個純潔的天使
So I can't feel shit so numb that I can't feel shit
我什麼都感覺不到，變的麻木不仁
Living just to die we dying just to live this life it doesn't make no sense
生亦何歡死亦何苦，一生碌碌無為，毫無價值
See I done tried every single fucking drug on that shelf
我曾試過所有藥物
Trust me man it don't help
信我，絲毫沒用
I just feel like I 'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己
I just feel like I'm losing myself
我只感覺我在迷失自己