kissed a goodnight

Saying goodnight to the one that might be
Listening close as I sing of my dreams
Kissed a goodnight to the winds of the sleep
So when I wake up I won't have to play make believe
Waking up, it's just me, what's new
Sun is shining but the pain seeps through
Don't want to get up
I'd rather stay under my covers and sleep
I'd rather stay living inside of my dreams
Reality got a hold on me
And I can't seem to shake it
Depression is lurking
I don't think I'll make it
My friends think I'm fine
And my family is aimless
Been downing these pills
Just to numb into brainless
But my wrist is so icy
I patched up with stainless
And prayed up these walls
So the picture is tainted
I'm tired of thinking
I'd rather just sleep
Goodnight to my demons
Just leave me be
Deep in my sleep
I've finally been finding some peace
Saying goodnight to the one that might be
Listening close as I sing of my dreams
Kissed a goodnight to the winds of the sleep
So when I wake up I won't have to play make believe
Laying and staring right up at the ceiling
Thinking I'm broken and not meant for healing
Maybe it's time that I left
Cause I didn't care the last time that I checked
Been living my life for what? A check?
When's the last time that I went out with friends?
Been working so hard that I ended up lying on hospital beds
Collapse on my lung in effect, I coulda ended up dead
So baby, I'm tired of lying, I miss you, I'm trying
To become enough for your love
One that I don't even know if I want
But you are the person I need
When I fall asleep
I see you, inside of my dreams
Saying goodnight to the one that might be
Listening close as I sing of my dreams
Kissed a goodnight to the winds of the sleep
So when I wake up I won't have to play make believe