Too High (Prelude)

So (Yes)
I used to be getting high every day
Smokin a lil roach, havin me a good lil day
You know what Im sayin?
And then I started to feel very guilty
Cause I wasnt doin no work
So I would equate getting high with feeling guilty
And every time I got high I felt an immense amount of guilt and I could not enjoy the high any more, right?
I could not enjoy it
I started feeling paranoid
I would call my family every time I got high, I still probably do
Just cause I just feel ****** emotional, I just be like, 'Hey Sis, hey Ma'
All on the road and ****
And then, um...
So I just stopped completely cause I didnt wanna feel guilty about it
And then one day I was in California with Suave havin some good lil **** and just enjoying my... no!
Havin a ****** edible mixed with some ****** ** **
Went outside, backyard, Chris and them growing a garden and ****
You know, Im like
Nice little backyard, just sitting down chilling, smoking
And just started working on ****, just working on ****
Because the **** allowed me to see that I wasnt working on ****
It allowed me to face that lazy demon inside
It was like, 'You aint doin nothin
You like really chill and you wrong for that
You layin on that gift, huh?
You gon regret that ****
Bein lazy, huh? You aint doin ****'
And I was like, 'Im not' and I felt so...
I need to do something
That's what it does to me
Its the type of time I like to not do nothin
I really dont wan get high
Cause it remind me that I have to do somethin