LETTER TO PEEP (Prod. Despair & Shiro)

I miss you so much, man
我真的好想你，peep
I just want to go and join you, man
我想與你共赴死亡
It's so **** *** lonely down here
一個人在這真的好孤單
Everything feels so different
一切都變了
I'ma see you soon, bro
我們很快就會再見
I promise
我發誓
Aye, Peep
誒，peep
Everyone you warned me about now claiming they miss you
那些你曾讓我小心的人都聲稱他們想念你
Held your cold face, said good bye, hugged you then kissed you
捧著你的面頰說再見擁抱然後吻別
Hopped up off that tour bus, stumbling in pieces
希望你走下這長途旅車然後安息
Hope you finally at peace now that you no longer breathing
如今你再也呼吸不到香甜的空氣了我只希望你能安息
When you was laughing the hardest, still felt your pain
當你瘋狂的笑著我依舊感受到你的痛楚
That deep desperation gaze, cry baby face
那深深抑鬱的凝視文著愛哭鬼的臉龐
You had had a thousand plays way back in the day
你有無數場巡演
When you had them millions, you was still exactly the same
當你擁有了無盡的財富你還是保持本心
Both ****** up, living rough, had nothing
一切都搞砸了活過了但一無所有
Edited your first video, you sent my PayPal money
編輯你的第一個視頻你用Paypal付款給我
Didn't even want it but it stopped my sister being hungry
我不想收這錢但它讓我的妹妹免受飢餓
We was so connected , living in completely different countries
我們不在同一個國度卻如此緊密相連
Flew out to LA, Uber to your place
飛到洛杉磯打個uber到了你家
Never seen so many strangers crowded in a tiny place
我從沒見過那麼多人擠在一個小小的屋子
Everyone offering drugs, taking pictures of your face
每個人都與你磕藥給你拍照
No one offering love or wondering 'bout your day
但沒一個人給你愛或問問你如今怎樣
Both heartbroken, introverted, so lonely
我們都一樣心碎內向孤獨
You was the only one of the few to ever really know me
你是那少有的真正了解我的人
Gus, what's it like up there, man? I wanna join ya
peep， 現在在那邊怎樣我真想與你一起
Struggling to keep it moving , tangled in paranoia
掙扎著生存因躁鬱而糾纏
Everyone that wasn't loyal to ya, woulda killed 'em for ya
每個人都不忠誠我真想殺了他們
You had the same mentality 'cause family important
你有與我一樣的心態因為家庭真的很重要
Gus, I'm tryna fight my fears, our childhood was poison
我正努力戰勝恐懼我們的童年都想監獄
I got demons I been running from, never stood up and fought 'em
我又錄了新歌永遠不停
'Bout to take a flight back to London, yeah, in a few days
幾天后又飛到了倫敦
Where we lived together, I don't wanna see that place
我們曾一起住在那如今我再也不想見到那個地方
All that bizare furniture you purchased, so awkwardly placed
所有你買來的家具都還在那放著
You'd take a step back and stare at it until it looked okay
你退後幾步盯著它們把位置調整好
I held your face, took a step back, nothing looked okay, brother
我捧著你的臉退後一步看起來真的不好
You was shining bright, now you've turned into this grey color
你曾如此閃耀如今是一片灰色
Holding back the tears everytime I hear your name come up
每次聽見你的名字我都要強忍淚水
I don't wanna say nothing, they don't know this pain's cutting
我不想多說不知道如何忘記這傷痛
Tryna stay strong for loners like us
努力為了像我們一樣孤獨的人而堅強
Made a video of you sleeping on the back of that bus
拍了一個你在車後排的視頻
Made a joke, said that Gus is working out finally
開玩笑說終於把一切都解決了
Put the camera on you to see that you was falling asleep
在你睡著時把相機對著你的臉頰
Everyday of that tour, like you usually do
每天巡演都像你曾做的一樣
Head back, mouth open, yep, the usual
頭靠後張著嘴是啊就像平常一樣
I saw you like this everyday on the entire tour
我每次都在巡演看見這樣你
I didn't know that you was dead, man, as if I would've recorded
我不知道你已經離去
(REST IN PEACE HELLBOY PEEP)
安息吧地獄男孩peep