Insane (Part 2)

編曲：Dansonn
混音：松夏
Lately I've been feelin' little bit messed up
近來我好像把一切都搞砸了
Keep thinking they all stare at me scream in the dark
總覺得他們都在暗處看我歇斯底里
You think that I am a slut
你可能覺得我是個蕩婦吧
You don't know I wanna be hugged
但你不願知道我只是想要個擁抱
Honestly I didn't care 'bout you that much
說實話，我也不是那樣在乎你
Though I acted like I was so madly in love
儘管我表現出愛你愛得瘋了一樣
Funny you bought all the shit and started to swag
可笑的是你居然信了，然後開始得意了
Oh please, you are the last guy I wanna ****
擺脫，就算全世界的男人都死光了我也不會想和你
I feel so hateful when I wake up
當我醒來時我充滿恨意
My mind distorted like psychopath
我的思維像精神病人一樣扭曲
I feel so strange “why am I here?”
我對我為什麼在這裡感到很疑惑
Staring at the darkness now you are scared
一直凝視黑暗的你害怕了吧
No pride in my life
我活得沒有自尊和驕傲
No one hears my cries
也沒有人聽到我的哭喊
But I won't do it this time
但這次我不會那樣做的啊
I gotta stay by my mama's side
我得讓媽媽放心啊
Believe it when I say
所以當我說我很好的時候
I am fine
請你一定要相信我
It seems too sad for me no one's ever been
聽起來好像挺悲傷的
Around me faithfully
從來沒有人願意和我真誠以待
Maybe I was mean
也許我太刻薄了
Been hallucinating
也許因為一直都有幻聽
Now I think
現在我甚至覺得
Maybe our God is even hating me
也許上帝都是討厭我的
So much toxic air
我說空氣有毒不能呼吸
Is it safe to breathe
不安全
I take my pills
於是醫生開始強制我吃藥
Doctors they made me
一日三次，長期服藥
I tried to forget
我嘗試忘記他
Go our separate ways
各自過各自的日子
But memories just won't stop playing
但記憶就像電影一樣在我腦海中循環
No pride in my life
我活得沒有驕傲自尊
No one hears my cries
也沒有人聽見我的哭喊
But I won' t do it this time
但這次我不會那樣做的
I gotta stay by my mama's side
我不能讓媽媽擔心
Believe it when I say
所以當我說我很好的時候請一定要相信我
Lori can you stop thinking about them
你能不能別再想傷心的事了
They don't give a shit about what you are feeling
那些人並不在乎你的感受，你的喜或悲，你的內疚自責
You always take it seriously when you should not
你總是把玩笑當真
Now what? Aren't you the only one that's hurting
現在又如何？難道你不是唯一一個還在糾結還在受傷的人嗎
Would you please please please please please stop crying
我拜託你別再哭了
Take your ****ing medicine
吃藥吧
Go to bed
睡覺吧
Tomorrow is another day
明天又是另外一天了
I feel so hateful when I wake up
當我醒來時我充滿恨意
My mind distorted like psychopath
我的思維像精神病人一樣扭曲
I feel so strange “why am I here?”
我對我為什麼在這裡感到很疑惑
Staring at the darkness now you are scared
一直凝視黑暗的你害怕了吧
No pride in my life
我活得沒有自尊和驕傲
No one hears my cries
也沒有人聽到我的哭喊
But I won't do it this time
但這次我不會那樣做的啊
I gotta stay by my mama's side
我得讓媽媽放心啊
Mama I am fine
別擔心媽媽，我很好