cold showers

Can I be honest for a second
Ive never felt this way before
And for me to even admit it
Yeah, it means a little more
I kept waiting for the moment
That youd finally let me in
But you never did
Maybe Im the one to blame
For thinking that you felt the same
Now Im taking cold showers
To drown out the hours
And wash off your touch on my skin
And I talk to myself just to get through the weeks
Going back to how things couldve been
Do you even remember
When we were both drunk
On the night of December
Couldve sworn it was love
Always told me thats youd show me
The town you grew up in
By the ocean, pull me closer
Youd lean in for a kiss
And I told you, in a heartbeat, I would find a way
To make it there someday
Maybe Im the one to blame
For thinking that you felt the same
Now Im taking cold showers
To drown out the hours
And wash off your touch on my skin
And I talk to myself just to get through the weeks
Going back to how things couldve been
Do you even remember
When we were both drunk
On the night of December
Couldve sworn it was love
Lets just pretend this isnt the end
You left me on read just to mess with my head
And left me in bed alone
Lets just pretend this isnt the end
Show up on my step cause you want me again
But youre not in bed alone
Now Im taking cold showers
To drown out the hours
And wash off your touch on my skin
And I talk to myself just to get through the weeks
Going back to how things couldve been
Do you even remember
When we were both drunk
On the night of December
Couldve sworn it was love