this winter days magic

this winter days magic seems not to be noticed by me again...
tired and uninspired
oh yes the song I listen to says so much
but is it really my fault should I be more open-hearted
should I completely change myself to start being loved by people I dont love
or should I always smile and start talking to those people
but I hate those conversations those I hope they soon run dry
and the circle seems to close itself
apathy spreads its wings
this winter days magic seems not to be noticed by me again...
so I wait for your call because I need you there
but the phone doesnt ring
depression embrace my soul
frustration tears my heart again and again