love n death metal

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One, two, three, four
取悅自己好難
Sometimes its hard to love yourself
過期的牛奶就放到酸
Sometimes you let the milk go sour
藏在房間裡嚼外賣
Sometimes you have amazon deliver instead of leaving the house
整日昏睡連連
Sometimes you sleep for sixteen hours
討厭孤獨

這令人討厭的孤獨
And I'm sick of being alone in my apartment
不知道如何變開心快樂
And I'm sick of being alone
怎麼做都是錯
I'm sick of being asked what it is I need to be happy
或許黑咖啡不加奶兩勺糖濃一點會清醒快樂
What I need is wrong
玫瑰花瓣般的無聲與嬌弱啊
What I need is black, no cream, two sugars & strong
死亡金屬般的嘶喊與昏沉啊

付出，信任，交流
Rose petals
假裝爽飛，被迫激進
Death metal
抽, 戒, 人生就這樣吧

地鼠酒吧再喝一扎
Love, trust, communication
不著邊際的異想天開
Fake orgasms, passive aggression
獅子女巫衣櫃小矮子
Drugs, withdrawal, my life is over
或許還有..
I need a drink at the Golden Gopher
死亡金屬的爆發與清醒
Fantasy books at happy hour
“毀滅吧, 趕緊的, 累了。”
The lion, the witch, the wardrobe, the coward
我對電梯師傅緊張的說

“Steve, 別那麼物質，
And then maybe
我可以為你打假分! '
Death metal
我信誓旦旦的說

但他讓我別扯別的他只要五星好評
'I feel like you could crash right now and it might be good for me'
他要的就是純粹的五星好評
I say to my lift driver nervously
玫瑰花瓣一般的輕柔與燦爛
'I feel like we could get rid of all money
死亡金屬一般的刻薄與坦誠
And give everyone fake points, Steve'
我甩著警棍想當蓋世英雄
I say to my lift driver confidently
為了找理由出門而yp 讓生活充滿激情

我悄無聲息的暗淡瀕臨死亡
He says 'all I need from you is five stars'
一盒紅一盒藍雨露均霑
'All I need is five crisp, sparkling, gold damn stars'
沉迷醉酒像個年邁的老頭

窩在沙發里
Rose petals
我的
Death metal
安全區裡..

或許還有.. 死亡金屬般的尖銳與透徹
I'm taking shrooms to kill the demons
Dating sites to find a reason to get out, life's exciting
Kill me slowly, I'm already dying
Marlboro reds, the blues, the balance
Beer soaked image of your grandparents couches
Of the couches

Of the couches
Of the couches

And maybe also death metal