Mind Playing Tricks on Me

I sit alone in my four-cornered room starin at candles.Oh what **** is on?
Let me drop some **** like this here
At night I cant sleep, I toss and turn
Candle sticks in the dark, visions of bodies bein burned
Four walls just starin at a *****
Im paranoid, sleepin with my finger on the trigger
My mother s always stressin I aint livin right
But I aint goin out without a fight
See, everytime my eyes close
I start sweatin, and blood starts comin out my nose
Its somebody watchin the AK
But I dont know who it is, so Im watchin my back
I can see him when Im deep in the covers
When I awake I dont see the ************
He owns a black hat like I own
A black suit and a cane like my own
Some might say, 'Take a chill, B'
But **** that ****, there s a ** *** tryin to kill me
Im pumpin in the clip when the wind blows
Every twenty seconds got me peepin out my window
Investigatin the joint for traps
checkin my telephone for taps
Im starin at the woman on the corner
Its ****** up when your mind is playin tricks on you
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I make big money, I drive big cars
Everybody know me, its like Im a movie star
But late at night, somethin aint right
I feel Im bein tailed by the same suckers head lights
Is it that fool that I ran off the block
Or is it that ***** last week that I shot
Or is itthe one I beat for five thousand dollars
Thought he had Caine but it was gold medal flour
Reach under my seat, grabbed my popper for the suckers
Aint no use to be lyin, I was scareder than a ************
But theyre laughin at pow pies and buried that quick
If its goin down lets get this **** over with
Here they come, just like I figured
I got my hand on the ************ trigger
What I sawll make your ass start gigglin
Three black, crippled and crazy senior citizens
I live by the sword
I take my boys everywhere I go
Because Im paranoid
I keep lookin over my shoulder and peepin around corners
My mind is playin tricks on me
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Day by day its more impossible to cope
I feel like Im the one thats doin ****
Cant keep a steady hand because Im nervous
Every Sunday mornin Im in service
Playin for forgiveness
And tryin to find an exit out of the business
I know the Lord is lookin at me
But yet and still its hard for me to feel happy
I often drift while I drive
Havin fatal thoughts of suicide
Bang and get it over with
And then Im worry free, but thats ********
I got a little boy to look after
And if I died then my child would be a bastard
I had a woman down with me
But to me it seemed like she was down to get me
She helped me out in this ****
But to me she was just another *****
Now shes back with her mother
Now Im realizin that I love her
Now Im feelin lonely
My mind is playin tricks on me
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This year Halloween fell on a weekend
Me and Geto Boyz are trick or treatin
Robbin little kids for bags
Till an old man got behind our ass
So we speeded up the pace
Took a look back and he was right before our face
Wed be in for a squab, no doubt
So I swung and hit the ***** in his mouth
He was goin down, we figured
But this was no ordinary **** *
He stood about six or seven feet
Now, thats the ***** Id been seein in my sleep
So we triple teamed on him
Droppin them ******* ***** Bs on him
The more I swung the more blood flew
Then he disappeared and my boys disappeared, too
Then I felt just like a fiend
It wasnt even close to Halloween
It was dark as **** on the streets
My hands were all bloody from punchin on the concrete
God damn, homie, my mind is playin tricks on me