Ill Mind of Hopsin 7

It's us, find power
吾為凡人，欲參大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意鏗鏗
It's us, find power
吾為凡人，欲參大道
(Live life, mind power)Yo, fuck anybody I might alarm
(其生碌碌，其意鏗鏗)Yo，那些會被我的言論刺激到的傢伙們，給我滾開
Life is a tour, I sit and ride along
人生不過一場旅行，我一直獨行
Taking some notes
做了點兒筆記【notes不僅是指字面上的筆記之義，還指Hopsin的人生經歷】
and then I write the song
我就寫下這首歌
Im staring down the road my life has gone
我死死凝視我的人生道路
Is this where I belong?
這是不是我應該踏上的那一歸屬？
Is it wrong to not believe in right and wrong?
不去明辨是非難道就是罪過？
My mental state is fucking me up
我的精神狀態讓我不得安生
And I pry the problem
while asking you for some answers
我為了求得你的答案而向許願池呼喊
But we dont have that type of bond
事實上我們並沒有這種聯繫方式
That my desires gone with the way
that Ive been living lately
近來各種慾望時常伴我生命左右
If I died right now, youd turn the fire on
如果現在我下了地獄，你一定會焚起烈火
Sick of this bullshit, niggas call me a sellout
真厭煩了那些雜碎話，我的聽眾們說我是個叛徒
Cause I hopped on Christianity
因為我曾對基督教如此狂熱，
so strongly then I fell out
結果卻只維持三分鐘
Now Im avoiding questions like a scared dog
with his tail down
如今我像喪家犬般夾著尾巴躲閃著對我的質疑
Feeling so damn humiliated
because they looking
at me like Im hellbound
在人們鄙夷的目光中恨不得挖個洞鑽進去
What story should I tell now?
而現在，你問我應該編造什麼故事？
Ill just expose the truth
我決定讓真實說話
Im so close to the fucking edge,
我現在離無神論如此之近，
I should be close to you
可是上帝，我本應依偎在你身邊【一說為接近地獄】
But who the fuck are You?
但是上帝你到底是誰？
You never showed the proof
你從來不洩漏一點機密
And Imonly fucking human yo,
而我不過是螻蟻般的人類，
what am I supposed to do?
你說我該怎麼去認識你？
Theres way too many different religions
with vivid descriptions
大千世界充斥著多如牛毛的宗教信仰和五花八門的神秘解讀

Begging all fucking men
and women to listen
沒皮沒臉地洗腦他娘的所有男女老少
I cant even beat my dick
without getting convicted
在他們的言論裡打個飛機都是種罪過
These aint wicked decisions,
以上並不是什麼邪惡想法，
I got different intentions
我只是認為教條不必太嚴苛
I been itching to get it,
我熱切地想獲得一些答案，
Ive been given assistance
我甚至從朋友那裡得到一些幫助
But the whole fucking system is twisted
但是整個宗教系統都是如此扭曲
Now Im dealing with this backlash
現在我正為一片激烈的抵製而頭疼，

because Marcus isnt a Christian只因為我Marcus不是個基督徒【Marcus為其真名】
And Ive been told
that my sinful life is an addiction
人們說我罪惡的一生充滿著惡習

But I cant buy it,
我才不會買賬，
its just too hard to stand beside it
這種教義苛刻得讓我無法認同
I need an answer and humans cant provide it
我需要一個真理，凡人無法提供的真理
I look at the Earth and Sun
我會細細研究地球和太陽，
and I can tell a genius man designed it
我認為它們出自天才的設計
Its truly mind blowing,
這是我內心真實的想法閃現，
I cant deny it
我不能否定
Is heaven real? Is it fake?
天堂是真？是假？
Is it really how I fantasize it?
是否與我的幻想一樣？
Wheres the Holy Ghost at?
那些聖靈現在何方？
How long it take Man to find it?
人類還需在尋找的道路上跋涉多遠？
My minds a nonstop tape playing
我的思考如同不息的磁帶，
and I cant rewind it
它也無法倒帶
You gave me a Bible
and expect me not to analyze it
你給我一本聖經，卻要求我忍住好奇不去鑽研它？
Im frustrated andyou provoked it
研究的結果讓我沮喪，正是你引發了這一切
Im not reading that motherfucking book
我才不會去讀這樣一本扯淡的書，
because a human wrote it
因為它不過出自庸人之手
I have a fucking brain, you should know it
我他媽的有我自己的大腦，上帝你應該知道
You gave it to me to think
你將其賜予我使我思考，
to avoid every useless moment
去免掉所有的不必要

It was a mission that I had to abort這正是我如今不得不終止的使命【mission也有傳教之意，Hopsin想讓聽眾理解他對基督教的看法】
Cause humans be lying
因為人總是在說謊，
with such an inaccurate source
我們永遠是誤解的來源
Its gon be hard to
put me back on the course
我偏離所謂正道太遠，想讓我回去太過費勁
Next Jehovahs Witness
to come on my porch
下一個耶和華見證人正無畏地向我家門廊走來【耶和華見證人是1870年代美國發起的聖經信仰，早期稱“聖經研究者”，是近現代發展較快的聖經信仰之一】
I swear Im slammin the door
而我發誓我會對他甩上大門

A lot of folks believe it though,
多少鄉巴佬都相信他們，
but Im not surprised
我真心不感到訝異
Humans are fucking dumb,
人類都他媽的愚蠢，
still thinkin that Pacs alive
到現在還相信2Pac還活在人世

I aint trying to take your legacy
and torch it down
我並不是想詆毀上帝你留給我們的偉大遺產【一說指詆毀2Pac留給hip-hop的財富】
Im just saying: I aint heard shit
from the horses mouth
我的意思是：我從來沒從你口中聽到關於聖經的只言片語【引用習語“ stright from the horse's mouth,意為從事件發生地聽到第一手消息】
Just sheep always telling stories
of older guys
聽到的只是你的羔羊們在轉述著古人的傳奇
Who were notarized by you
when you finally vocalized
傳說在你終於現身時賦予他們這權力
Now Im supposed to bow my head
禱告時他們要求我低下頭顱，
and close my eyes
閉上眼
And somehow let the Holy Ghost arise
然後不知怎的會讓聖靈出現
Sounds like a fucking Poltergeist
聽起來像個傻叉靈異事件

Show yourself and then boom its done
上帝啊，現身吧，你將實現教會的繁榮
Every rumors gone,
所有的謠言都將逝去，
I no longer doubt this shit,
我也不會再懷疑神靈，
youre the One
你就是我們唯一的主宰
Ill admit that my sinful ways was stupid fun
那時我將承認我罪惡的人生只是一個愚蠢兒戲
And all my old habits can hop onto
of a roof to plunge
而我所有的惡習將自行遠離

Ill donate to a charity that could use the funds
我會將那些用來享樂的錢捐給靠譜的慈善機構
Fuck the club, instead of bitches Id hang
with a group of nuns
那些夜店見鬼去吧，比起碧池們我更願意與一幫純潔的修女在一起
And everyone
that I ran into would know
what I came to do
那些懂我的人都知道我想要做什麼
I wouldnt take a step unless
我不會再輕舉妄動，除非
it was in the name of You
是以上帝之名
I hate the fact that I have to believe
令人痛恨的是我不得不去相信所謂聖經
You havent been chatting
with me like you did Adam and Eve
你與亞當夏娃交談，卻對我置之不理
And I aint seen no fucking
talking snake unravel from trees
我也從來沒見過會說話的蛇在樹上揭開你的秘密
With an apple to eat,
偷食禁果的機會
that shit never happens to me
也未曾降臨
I dont know if you do or dont exist,
因此我無法知曉你存在與否，
it is driving me crazy
這讓我痛苦不堪
Send your condolences,
求你慰問一下我，
this is me reaching to you so dont forget
我只是想接近你，請勿忘記
If hell is truly your pit of fire
and I get thrown in it
如果地獄真的是你的火坑，而我真的掉了進去
Imma probably regret the fact
that I ever wrote this shit
我也許會為這滿紙荒唐言而追悔莫及

My gut feeling says its all fake,
可惜我的本能在告訴我這都是瘋言瘋語
I hate to say it but fuck it,
我不想這麼說但去他媽的，
shit I done lost faith
我真的失掉了信仰
Thisisnt a small phase,
這不是一段短小的過渡期，
my perspectives all changed
我的整個世界觀都改變了
My thoughts just keep picking
shit apart all day
我的思維整天都忙著把謊言撕碎

And in my mind I make perfect sense
在我心中我有了自己完美的答案
If you arent real
如果你是子虛烏有，
then all my prayers arent worth a cent
那麼我所有的祈禱都不值一名【a cent與ascent同音，也指祈禱並不能使人升上天堂】
That would mean
that I could just make up
what my purpose is
那就意味著我一介凡人可以擁有自己的意願
And I could just sit in church
and say ' fuck' in the services
當然我也可以在教堂裡爆粗口來滿足自己

Man what if Jesus was a facade?
如果耶穌基督只是虛假的表象

Then that would mean
the governments god
那就意味著政府才是所謂神明
I feel like theyve
been brainwashing us with a lot
他們灌輸各種各樣思想為我們洗腦便是證據
So much that we dont even notice
that were stuck in the box
我們還蒙在鼓裡不明所以
Man everything is 'what if',
對所有事我們都說“假如”，
why is it always 'what if'
為什麼永遠是模糊的“假如”？
Planet Earth 'what if',“
假如”地球是神創的？ ！
the universe 'what if'“
假如”宇宙是無窮的？ ！
My sacrifice 'what if',“
假如”我的犧牲和付出有回報？ ！
my afterlife 'what if'“
假如”死後地獄的確存在？ ！
Every fucking thing
that deals with you is fucking suspect
我們思考的每一件事到頭來都只是操蛋的猜測

Im fucking done,
我受夠了，

Im fucking done
真的受夠了

This is my fucking life
and Im living it, Im having fun
怎樣，我還是過我那罪惡的生活吧，及時行樂什麼的

If you really care for me,
如果你真的關心我，
prove that I need to live carefully
就拿出點證據來教我做人啊

But Ill be damned
if I put my own pleasure aside
for an afterlife that isn't even guaranteed
但是讓我為了一個不知道存在與否的極樂世界而禁慾簡直扯淡

We are you, and youre us,
事實上人類就是神啊，而你也不過是人，
stop playing games
不要再玩無聊的角色扮演了【此處提出了泛神論觀點；同時運用雙關，提出政府來自於人民，應代表人民意志】

My lifes all I got,
我的生活正是我的所有，
and heaven is all in my brain
天堂不過存在於我的大腦中

And when I feel I am in hell,
當我感到我正身處地獄，
my ideas are what get me through pain
是我的思想教會我忍受

Do as you please,
你愛怎樣就怎樣，
and Ill just do me,
我決定堅持自我
Im a human,
我知道我的地位僅是人類，
Ill stay in my lane
我也不會越界
Ill mind
這是我的病態心理
It's us, find power
吾為凡人，欲參大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意鏗鏗
It's us, find power
吾為凡人，欲參大道
Live life, mind power
其生碌碌，其意鏗鏗