How It Feels To Feel Nothing

Yeah
I know I aint been myself lately
I been feeling like I need help lately
Feel like all the people Ive needed just left me
When they aint need me
So I just keep to myself lately
Some people are damaged before they know it
Some people are broken but they dont show it
Memories burning, my heart is frozen, but
Im only human dont judge me, yeah, Im still growing
I mean, its hard to love
When your hearts been bruised in the past
Your soul broken, your scared of being attached
And everybody just acts like they understand
We all have that one person we wish we had, but
Times change, people change, Im still the same
Just some things you wont understand til you feel the pain
Our love burned like a fire in a storm
Knew it wouldnt last but at least it kept us warm
I mean, you know me, I know I wasnt the only
I know I wasnt the one you just loved me
Cause you were lonely
But ****
I used to be so in love with being alive
But these days
I just think of the fact that one day Ill die
And these people will just forget about me
The ones that act like they gave a **** about me
As soon as I turn my back, talking **** about me
But I need love even if its fake so they still around me
They still around me its clear
What if I disappeared?
What if I just said **** this life I dont wanna be here?
What if I take these pills I dont wake up from my sleep?
Sometimes wish I could have a conversation with Peep
A conversation with Mac, maybe they feel how I feel
Too caught up in the pain, but we forget that it heals
Yeah well, Ive got a busy mind and an empty soul
And Im stuck between running back or just letting go
She sins like a devil, but, loves like an angel
If you see what I see, shes beautiful, every angle, yeah
You see I put my emotions all on the table
But why is it the people with the most blessings
Thats never grateful, damn
Loves like an angel, if you see what I see,
Shes beautiful, every angle yeah
All on the table but why is it the people
With the most blessings thats never grateful, I mean
Yeah they say true love dont ever grow apart
They say you cant break a broken heart
They say it hurts until you feel nothing
So I take these drugs until I feel something
They say true love dont ever grow apart
They say you cant break a broken heart
They say it hurts until you feel nothing
So I just hide from these feelings and Im still running
Im still running Im just