absolute zero

Its not my fault that I cant understand your pain
不能理解你的痛苦，不是我的過錯
Im going round in circles over nothing
我在轉來轉去，漫無目的
Despite the energy Ive spent on being you
儘管我為你付出許多
I dont think itIl all amount to something
但我不認為這一切會有什麼意義
So please forgive me if Im seeming far away
所以請原諒我，如果我看上去遙不可及
It takes a while to find the hard reset key
找到硬復位鍵需要一些時間
My bodys broken and my psyches doing worse
我的身體已然支離破碎，我的精神也越發沉湎
At this point itd be best if you could end me
此時此刻，你能將我終結再好不過
I want to fall apart again With water in my veins
我願再次分崩離析，和不純淨的血液
And ice inside my brain Oh
與已麻木的心智一同
I need to crash against the day
我得予這白日以猛撞
A slave to allI make
那囚係於我所犯下的種種
A teardrop in the lake I call
湖中淚珠，我如此稱呼
Its been a week since lve had a proper meal
我已經一周沒吃過一頓像樣的飯了
And yet my brain still seems content to let me starve
但我的大腦似乎仍滿足於讓我挨餓
The months just flicker by
數月時光輕盈閃過
I cant yet bring myself to cry for the ragged holes they carve
我仍不能於他人的殘局前落淚
So I apologize for my selfishness
所以我為我的自私道歉
The ways Ive left you powerless as I retreated back into myself
我曾讓你無力，我也這樣對待自己
Ive been a weight on you, I havent paid my dues
我一直是你的負擔，但卻從未有過承擔
You know I dont deserve your help
你知道我並不值得你的幫助
At the end of the universe
在星宇盡處
There is nothing but the embers of your soul
渺茫無物，唯你靈魂灰燼漂浮
Listen close to your death drive
細聽將你駛向死亡之數
There is nothing left in this life
此生孑然再無起伏
And the gods will know you chose right
而神靈自知你坦蕩浩途
But I can see the light
但我能看到光
I want to fall in love again
我願再次墜入愛河
With lightning in my veins
和閃雷鳴的血管
A storm inside my brain
與起狂嵐的思想一同
Oh
啊
I need to claw above the day
我得予這白日以壓制
To care for all I make
去關心我所做過的種種
To hear the echoed wake I call
迴聲飄忽，我如此稱呼
When the night is gone
當長夜破曉
The tides will part
浪潮應退卻
All a testament to fear of moving on
我予前進的恐懼以證言：
I wont let you have this one
我不會讓你得逞的
Not until my collapsing heart turns to rust
直至我已然四散的心靈附銹