Better For Me

Look, I brought your present back to Tiffanys, yeah, was for your birthday, before you
Hurt me the worst way, I wonder whats gettin into me
I wonder if your drinks in his mouth tastin like victory
I wonder why at night every lie still plays like a symphony, I
Can barely focus, you never cared, I was broken
Been hurtin since my dad passed, bet you wouldnt have noticed
Cause you were busy blacked out, stumblin, losin focus
Surrounded by all thats hopeless in life that you never chose, and
Here I go again, preachin like I know who you are
Too busy stuck inside your phone to ever notice the stars
I miss the nights wed sing Adele in your car
And had you wetter than the tears that you would cry when discussin your scars
I know your demons carry weight, dont know what its like to be you
Built myself from the bottom, dont know what its like to need you
You lied from the beginning, dont know what its like to read you
My dad passed away and that day I flew out to see you
Remember? Im thinkin back to December
And how we talked about forever, now we talk less than never
I cant lie, sometimes I find myself re-reading your letter
Im not sayin I was perfect, still, I wish I woulda treated you better
How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
Better, better , better for me?
How could you think this would be
On and on andon again, I fear this voice inside my head
That tells me its all lies and I should let you go
On and on and on again, I hear this voice inside my head
That tells me its alright and I should hold you close
You dont know how many times
I forgive you, just so I can keep you by my side
I dont know why we waste our time
Spendin all our nights in this gorgeous life
Now maybe time was just against us, cause you had just been broken when I met ya
I tried to take your pieces, and put you all back together
But the truth is comin out, I feel your void when were together
Not sayin that I was better, you drink to relieve the pressure
I know, lets keep it real
I know you loved to lie, but do you find you love me still?
Cause he will never love you, like I loved you when I promise, that is real
You can delete all of our pictures, but you cant delete your feels
You should be easy to replace
But every meaningless conversation, I see your face
Im tryna fill this hole in my heart that you ****** made, Im trippin
Shouldve known that I would never find my happiness in all of these women
I need to find it in myself, thats for damn sure
Almost been a year since I got you from the airport
Crazy how time flies, Im tryin to hold on while
I wait for your call like, 'Come out at the bar!', at night, now, how could this be?
How could you think this would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you thinkthis would be
Better, better, better for me?
How could you think this would be
On and on and on again, I fear this voice inside my head
That tells me its all lies and I should let you go
On and on and on again, I hear this voice inside my head
That tells me its alright and I should hold you close
You dont know how many times
I forgive you, just so I can keep you by my side
I dont know why we waste our time
Spending all our nights in this gorgeous life