cold

I was born from something different than i am now
Cuz what i am now, is like motion of the sand
How it fights with the waves creating friction
Its the struggle of a dream, within the rhymes and the diction
That i spit whenever im feeling down
Escape in a safer sound
I always heard it takes less effort to smile than effort to frown
But im starting to think that every lie that ive heard is just adding up
Inside my chest, i think ive had enough
Im impaired by all my fears
Isolated by my peers
Hung up on the **** i hear
From lips that only disappear
And ghost me when im feeling down
Break my body to the ground
Suffocate in sadness sounds
To fold the fomo in my frown
Overdose on serotonin
Tolerance is overflowing
Only time will tell
But i got no idea just where im going
Lost up in the architechture
Of an ode to feeling better
Deep december sweater weather
808s beyond forever
I been gone for ******* years, its been all over
Theres been nothing but contempt and aggravation in my shoulders
I feel it when i fall asleep, and every day i rise
Theres no power left inside to try, so i say id rather die
But im so ************* scared that no one cares
So ill lock myself in brodys attic , adding knots to knotted hair
***** about my story, and how none of what i feel is fair
And sign it, 'love, the bre a thing backwards: Unimportant, unaware'
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass
Can you hear me?
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass
Pickin up the pieces
Cleaning up your mess
Yeah, I used to love you
Now you make me anxious
Talkin like Im toxic
Babe, Im just depressed
Come through for the night
Lay your head on my chest
When the sun comes up
I might say you gotta go
Tell me how you want it baby
We can take it slow
Yeah, youre lying to my face
You dont think Ill ever know
If youre hoping for a chase
Put your faith in safer homes
Blowin up my phone
Now youre asking for a re-do
I just want some dome
And that gucci I can see through
Money aint a problem
When you do it for the love
Keep my eyes on the prize
Til Im sittin up above
With a blunt in my mouth
And a knife on my tounge
Now my lifes headin south
And my legs are feeling numb
Yeah, my heads filled with doubt
Cant you tell that Im dumb?
Put my life to an end
With an unloaded gun
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass
Can you hear me?
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass
Never thought it would come to this
Feel the pain in my chest, put your nail in my wrist
Waking ups a struggle feeling like ****
Another new day, another plan to miss
Im tired of taking ownership for all my missteps
I wanna feel something new, something deeper than this
Somethings I cantchange, thats just a story that I say to make it go away
Dont you try to war off blame, youre the reason that Im cold like its the middle of the winter
Im still ****** up from December
You can hear it in my timbre
I dont wanna remember
Im shaken to my center
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass
Can you hear me?
This day might be my last
This dark cloud will never pass
So cold ill shatter like glass