discombobulated

Life has got me feelin' discombobulated
In place of common phrases all i say are awkward statements
In every conversation
Often sittin' cautious pacin'
Droppin' frames in talks with strangers makin' observations
In that awful cadence
I've been rather quiet since a sophomore
Every time my voice comes out my mouth
It sounds like nails on a chalkboard
Savin' pieces shattered as my age increases faster
I can make my thesis matter if i'd learn to ******' talk more
But that's just an inkling small talk is always shrinking
In this ship we'll all be sinkin' 'til we fill in all the gaps
I've made some dumb decisions and evaded inhibitions
Diggin' graves for my ambitions just to make it on the map
Which seems ironic it present given my title
Periodically steppin' through this recital i've practiced a thousand times
Messagin' with my idols
Indefinitley soundin' like a dumbass when i try though (Try though)
I treat a soundcloud page like a diary
And push away all the people who inspire me
Sorry
So afraid of the person i should try to be
And it seems by now they should kinda be
Sorry