Midlife Crisis

I drew the four of pentacles,
Yesterday when I did my tarot,
She says Ive been holding on too long,
If I wanna grow Ive got to move on
I didnt want to write about you but,
If I wanna be brand new youre,
One of the things I need to let be,
I already know you dont think of me,
No sweat off my back,
I think Im gonna have a hard attack,
This new midlife crisis,
Is not how I thought itd be
Two decades now,
Done living in my mortal flesh,
This will be the year I flex
Two decades now,
Living in my mortal flesh,
You aint even see me yet
Ill be pulling a biddy in the summer,
98 degrees by the pool drinking,
trying to beat this heatwave,
I dont need a bowl,
what you trying to smoke,
Say youre cutting down,
but we know that its a joke
Well be high till the,
end of our day
Truly looking back,
I know Im on the right path,
This new midlife crisis,
Turned out to be a blessing,
Two decades now,
Done living in my mortal flesh,
This will be the year I flex
Two decades now,
Living in my mortal flesh,
You aint even see me yet