I'm Trying

She said Im not pointing fingers,
He said yes you are,
她說我不是在指指點點

他說是的，你是
cause you wouldnt bring it up if you werent.
因為如果你沒有，你就不會提出來。
And if Id told you Id been walking
如果我告訴你我一直在走
out in the dark night thinking
在黑夜裡思考
Would you take as truth this alcoholics word?
你認為這個酒鬼的話是真的嗎？

哦，我不能改變過去，
Oh I cant change, whats done is done,
但我可以告訴你
but I can tell you this
沒有一天不詛咒自己和所犯下的罪惡
Not a day goes by that I dont curse myself and all my sins
我也需要你堅持住，

當我的身體要死的時候
and I need you to hold on too,
雖然我未嘗擺脫那些一直困擾我的心魔，
while this part of me is dying
我在努力，我在努力。
Though I havent kicked the demons that haunt me,
她坐在地板上說我希望自己更強壯

現在我覺得自己像玻璃一樣脆弱。
Im trying, Im trying.
我想相信你，

相信你保留了解放自己的方法，
She sat down on the floor and said I wish that I was stronger
我討厭那些不斷阻礙我的困惑。
Right now I feel as fragile as glass.
我父母認為我瘋狂了很久，

但沒有什麼對我們更有利事情
And I want to believe you,
來向他們證明他們錯了。
believe whats held you has freed you,
我不想畏懼，
and I hate these doubts that keep on comin back.
我不想認為你在撒謊，

雖然我還沒有找到我需要的信念，
My parents think Im crazy for hangin on this long,
我正在努力。我正在努力
but theres nothing I want more for us
他問你想要我離開嗎？
than to prove to them theyre wrong.
即使你知道我的理由
And I dont want to be afraid,
但她說，他不願相信
I dont wanna think youre lying,
不，我依然愛你

哦，我依然愛你。
And though I havent found the faith that I need,
他說我不知道為什麼我是個傻瓜，

但我可以告訴你，
Im trying. Im trying.
沒有一天不詛咒自己和所犯下的罪惡

然後他跪下
He asks do you want me to leave?
現在他們都哭了，
Cause if you do you know I will,
他說，我不是我想成為的人，
but she says, much to his disbelief,
但我正在努力。我正在努力。我在努力，我在努力
No, I love you still.

Oh, I love you still.

He said I dont know why Ive been the fool,
but I can tell you this,
not a day goes by that I dont curse myself and all my sins.

Then he dropped down to his knees,
By now they both were crying,
He said, I havent been the man I want to be,

But Im trying. Im trying. Im trying, Im trying.