Holding On To Smoke

I'm tired of feeling comatose
想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
最喜愛的自己也溜走
I'm barely holding onto smoke
我幾乎沒有在戰鬥
I'm barely holding on to smoke!
我幾乎沒有在戰鬥！
I'm not addicted but I'm not clean
我沒沉溺但也戒不掉癮
Why do I do this to myself on repeat
為何要重蹈覆轍我問自己
So disconnected from my own reality
我是如此的脫離自己的實際
Am I man or machine
我是人或機器
If I give, will you take?
是否會收我贈給
As I lie for the taste
那是我謊言的滋味
I just **** it up
我只會把一切搞砸
As you lap it up
當你欣然接受
(Go!)
上！
Through flesh and bone
靠骨和肉
I walk alone
我獨自走
(Go!)
上！
If I run will I fade away
如果奔跑將會散如雲煙
'Cause I don't wanna leave it behind
又不想把一切都拋一
In all my pride , all my shame
在我傲內，我恥內
I find strength enough to show you
有足夠力量展現給你
I may bend but I won't break
能擊退但不敗潰
'Cause I define who I
因我定義我是誰
Define who I become
還有我成為誰
I miss the me that I have not met
想會會那素未謀面的自己
Choking in silence on the words left unsaid
在未說出的話語裡沉默地窒息
I feel a sickness for a home I've never been
我因陌生棲身處生了思鄉病
And I exist in black and white but now I'm seeing red
印在陳舊單色片裡但我現在看到激情
I built a shelter in complacency
我得意忘形建了一個避難所
Locked myself in and set fire
鎖住自己放火
And threw away the key
扔鑰匙都不是被迫
Too scared to live but I'm afraid to die
怕下地獄然而也怕生活
So am I living or am I just alive?
我是在生存還是在墮落？
In all my pride, all my shame
在我傲內，我恥內
I find strength enough to show you
有足夠力量展現給你
I may bend but I won 't break
能擊退但不敗潰
I define who I who I become
我定義了我成為誰
'Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
因我想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
哪怕最喜愛的自己也溜走
I 'm barely holding on to smoke
我幾乎沒有在戰鬥
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
但我會堅持，會堅持
Broken! I'm holding on
打破！我會執著
Driven! To right the wrong
奮力！糾正過錯
Silent! Connected yet I feel so separated
沉默！有聯繫但仍感覺到分離
Fallen! Through flesh and bone
墮落！靠骨和肉
Frozen! I stand alone
冰凍！獨自站著
Deafened! In silence the voice remains
震聾！聲音繼續迴盪寂靜中
Behind my eyes, beneath my rage
我雙眼後，我怒火下
I was struggling to get through
我一直在盡力掙扎
Out of time and out of faith
不管時間和信仰
I define who I become!
我定義了我成為誰！
In all my pride, all my shame
在我傲內，我恥內
I find strength enough to show you
有足夠力量展現給你
I may bend but I won 't break
能擊退但不敗潰
'Cause I define who I
因我定義我是誰
Define who I become
還有我成為誰
' Cause I'm tired of feeling comatose
因我想逃出萎靡不振的彀
I've lost the me that I loved most
哪怕最喜愛的自己也溜走
I'm barely holding on to smoke
我幾乎沒有在戰鬥
But I'm holding on, I'm holding on
但我會堅持，會堅持
I'm tired of being human, tired of being numb
我厭倦落俗，厭倦麻木
I'm waiting for the holy ghost to come
我期待聖靈與我共依附
So save me from the webs that I have spun
所以請把我從自織的網裡救出
I'm holding on, holding on
我會堅持，會堅持
I'm holding on
我會堅持
Holding on to smoke!
堅持戰鬥！