In My Absence

Eyes that meet to say farewell
And linger through the sleepless nights

A trail of days that end in tears

But I can never be there

The rush of hours that never seem to end

What life has dealt, you cannot comprehend

I am the absentee

I know youre out there searching tonight

Im right here

Another day and I cannot see through your eyes

Im right here

How could I have known
What preceded your own thoughts

Wish that I could listen
To what only speaks inside
Every raging dissonance
Each jarring note

But I could never be there

How can you think

That I would understand
When words just go around
What the heart truly wants

I am the absentee

I know youre out there searching tonight

Im right here
Another day and I cannot see through your eyes

Im right here

I want to tell you

Of the exploding light

How everything is visible

Moments before the dark

I am never, never there

I know youre out there searching tonight

Another day and Im not there

Thrust with nails of conflict, anxiety and pain

Through spells of anger, confusion and defeat

I wish Id see me here in front of you

But I am not here

I know youre out there searching tonight

Im right here
Another day and I cannot see though your eyes

I know youre out there

But Im right here

Another day and I cannot see though your eyes

Lead me right