Heartbroken

I've been trying to move forward I'm trying
But every tear that falls steady be crying
I come with pain lately I been avoiding you
Might sound crazy baby I been saving you
Baby I'm a killer but I feel safe with you
I don't care about winnin I be hurt if I lose you
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
Don't know the last time I done smiled It's been a while
I done broke down into tears Trey done lost trial
He had trial the same week as my birthday
Now tell me how the **** I'm supposed to celebrate this day
Look me in my eyes and try to see passed my fears
Cause I been broke lil conscious tryna heal myself over the years
I got a world on my shoulders I can't no longer hold it
I know I always save the day but today I need a shoulder
I been abused while I was a child probably why I don't ever smile
Everybody out will take the ends but they won't do the mile for me
I broke down deep in tears my mama say she proud of me
Everybody say they love me but I don't think they notice me
I come with pain lately I been avoiding you
Might sound crazy baby I been saving you
Baby I'm a killer but I feel safe with you
I don't care about winnin I be hurt if I lose you
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
Running away from you loving you from a distance
Taking a step back from reality to see what I'm missin
I really meant it when I told you
That I love you I just show it different
Give them loyalty then they crossed me it's become a sequence
I really hate when I feel in love it's just a time of the season
Jumped in these skreets
When I know god didn't have no time for a reason
I was always chosen different I ain't wanna be
I watched my mama get abused I remember that time he beat her
I know you're tired of me being these streets
Rather be on a island with me
I can't forget where I came from these streets a part of me
Loving me is like love and basketball take a gamble with me
Look me in my eyes and see yourself that's a father's eyes I see
I come with pain lately I been avoiding you
Might sound crazy baby I been saving you
Baby I'm a killer but I feel safe with you
I don't care about winnin I be hurt if I lose you
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
Broken hearted baby I been crying
Trying to overcome my pain I been trying
I been trying
I been crying
Whoa
I been trying
Whoa