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Come a long way, the hard way
And maybe I made it too hard
Been a long fight, the wrong kind
That breaks you and leaves you unsure
Been fighting to feel like myself
Not sure thats what I want anymore
Feeling like me is probably the problem
Ive had all along
I tell everyone I got better
But what if Im not?
Its hard to face the truth sometimes
Its hard to face the truth
Oh and I tell everyone it gets better
But what if Im wrong?
Its hard to tell the truth sometimes
Am I always gonna just be, just be
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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
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Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself its alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad
got pages and pages
Of documentation I keep
Looking for answers
And patterns Ive hidden in me
Dont need the world in my hands
Think Id be happy with halfway content
I should grow up and shut up
Im probably wanting too much
Oh and I tell everyone it gets better
But what if Im wrong?
Its hard to tell the truth sometimes
Am I always gonna just be, just be
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Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
Background sad, background sad
Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself its alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad
As I fade into the background,
I remember all the memories I came with
Im meant to be ok with nobody changing around me,
Im drowning in isolation,
But these melodies I play with
Its kept me sane again and again
When Im sometimes taking the pain
And I tell myself Ill never be amazing
The cemeterys a playlist, of the voices of the dead
Were respecting what they said,
Especially knowing we always say
Am I always gonna just be, just be
Background sad, background sad
Waiting for the storm clouds to clear in my head
Background sad, background sad
Wondering if this is as good as it gets
Am I always gonna just be, just be getting by
Telling myself its alright?
Does it matter how hard I try?
Am I always gonna just be, just be background sad