See If I Mean It

I wish I could make my feelings go away, slaving away
Waiting on a dream, got no patience today, blinking away
I dont wanna sleep, I've been staying awake
I dont talk like all week , I might go in my ayy
Stay out my way, nothing to say
Ive been online, it might ruin my day
I've been outside, wouldnt you run away?
Im scheming, yeah
Need a light, Im fiending, fiending
Ive been staying out dreaming
Lately Ive been thinking
In the spotlight, Ima ball out, Im genius
Got by and now I'm alright, I ain't dreaming
Yall live, but in my mind, I'm decent
My time, Ima shine bright, Im seasoned
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
Wish I had sleep, but I threw that away
Flying out state, tryna get up early,
Know my ride on the way
Smile on my face, even though Im dead broke,
One day I'ma get paid
And I got bills, but Im finding a way
Tryna be safe, I dont see my friends,
Ive been grinding away
Hiding away, no one understands, Ive been trying to say
Im bleeding
Till my heart stop beating, beating
But I swear Im not leaving
I still got my freedom
In the spotlight, Ima ball out, Im genius
Got by and now Im alright, I aint dreaming
Yall live, but in my mind, Im decent
My time, Ima shine bright, Im seasoned
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it
See if I mean it