In My Mind

In my mind, in a future five years from now
在我心中，從現在開始未來五年
I'm a hundred and twenty pounds
我有一百二十磅
And I never get hung over
我從不宿醉
Because I will be the picture of discipline
因為我會嚴於律己
Never minding what state I'm in
無論我是何種狀態
And I will be someone I admire
我會成為我欣賞的人
And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now
現在想像我會成為那種人感覺很有趣
But it does not seem to have happened
但這似乎沒有實現
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
也許我只是忘了怎樣看清事實
That I 'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be
我根本不是我本以為會成為的那種人

在我心中，從現在開始
And in my mind, in the far away here and now
我不知怎麼已經變得控制力很強
I've become in control somehow
我從來不丟錢包
And I never lose my wallet
因為我會嚴於律己
Because I will be the picture of discipline
從不搞砸任何事
Never ****ing up anything
我會成為一個遵規守紀的好司機
And I'll be a good defensive driver
現在想像我會成為那種人感覺很有趣
And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now
但這似乎沒有實現
But it does not seem to have happened
也許我只是忘了怎樣看清事實
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
我根本不是我本以為會成為的那種人
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
在我心中，當我老去我依然美麗

種些鬱金香和蔬菜
And in my mind when I'm old I am beautiful
精心照料
Planting tulips and vegetables
不像現在的我
which I will mindfully watch over
做什麼都很匆忙
Not like me now
從不注意任何事
I'm so busy with everything
但我確定當我老去我會留意
That I don't look at anything
現在想像我會成為那種人感覺很有趣
But I'm sure I'll look when I am older
那不是我現在想要的但是我曾經想要的
And it's funny how I imagined that I could be that person now
我也許會放棄，那樣很莫名其妙
That that's not what I want but that's what I wanted
我不想成為我想成為的人
That I'd be giving up somehow how strange to see
在我心中，我思緒萬分
That I don't want to be the person that I want to be
想像不切實際的事

當我回到現實
And in my mind, I imagine so many things
我眨著眼睛
Things that aren't really happening
說，“我還沒想完”
And when they put me in the ground
我還要紋一個紋身
I'll start pounding the lid
卻有個聲音對我說“這一刻我是活著的”
Saying, 'I haven't finished yet'
我想像的方式很有趣
I still have a tattoo to get
我可以贏得這場從未贏過的奮鬥
It says, 'I'm living in the moment'
也許沒有那麼有趣
And it's funny how I imagined
我一直都在奮鬥
That I could win this winless fight
但也許我得認為這很有趣
Maybe it isn't all that funny
如果我想在有生之年好好生活
That I've been fighting all my life
也許這是就最有趣的
But maybe I have to think it's funny
認為我此生都不會認清
If I want to live before I die
我就是我想成為的那個人
And maybe it's funniest of all
太對了
To think I'll die before I actually see
我就是我想成為的那個人
That I am exactly the person that I want to be

**** yes
I am exactly the person that I want to be