ghost in the shell

remember them days i was hitting licks
just to keep all the lights on?
whole time they was saying i wasnt shit
but at least we survived, huh?
16 when i dropped out of highschool
when all of our bills was past due
promise id get us a bag soon
so i did what i did cuz i had to
if you looked at me wrong i was bad news
kept a tool i was ready to use it
demon mode we on go, i was used to
living a life i was ready to lose, shit
then i thought about my mama
if i kept it up then we wouldnt
have a roof and i knew it
so i swore to myself to stop with the **** shit
and focused on making the music
stayed up every night just to make it work
for better or worse
laid up every night thinking about my worth
and repressing the hurt
started believing that happiness was
something i aint deserve
so i made it a goal to flex on the world
before i leave this earth
i done bid farewell to all the
feelings that i bottled
ghost inside a shell
after all these pills i swallowed
if you couldnt tell by now
i aint no ****ing idol
this a cry for help-
think ive always been a lost soul
dealt with all this trauma
that i bottled up with bottles
knowing it wont help
is the hardest pill to swallow
wanna ask myself- have i
always been this hollow?
dont know where to go,
yeah ive always been a lost soul
hollup wait a minute
fast forward now im winning
still i feel so vacant, damn
all of these bands i been spending
both of my wrist probably 20
still getting drunk off the henny
pockets are full but im empty
and thats on depression
when im under pressure,
i tend to do better
but all of this stress
will leave me on the stretcher
my friends wanna help me
but i never let em
if anyone tries them
ill probably kill them
that goes for my shorty
and everyone close to me
on my life im willing to die
and if i do, its no need to cry
im with my brothers on the other side
nah im trippin
maybe i just really miss em
but i promised to keep on living
aint done with my mission
until im getting these millions
and let em know who do it the best
never fold, keep my foot on they necks
stay focused on getting a check
i be praying that they never test me cuz...
i done bid farewell to all the
feelings that i bottled
ghost inside a shell
after all these pills i swallowed
if you couldnt tell by now
i aint no ****ing idol
this a cry for help-
think ive always been a lost soul