what am i supposed to give when i have nothing left

Tired of this ****, I ain't having it
厭倦這些東西，我不是擁有它
Rid of my innocence
擺脫我的天真清白
I ain't making any sense
我不是說不通
Used to be okay, that's past tense
曾經還說得過去，但那已是過去
But you know, **** always happens
但你知道的，總有不幸發生
Look around, everyone's laughing
看看周圍，每個人都在大聲笑著
I am too but I'm just good at acting
我也是這副嘴臉的樣子但是我只是善於表演
I ain't really feel good
我不是真的感覺還行
But I know I should
但我知道我應該表現的高興
Yeah I prolly could
是啊我應該可以的
But I know I won't
但我知道我不會這麼做
But I know I won't
但我知道我不會的
Misery, I'm the embodiment
痛苦啊，我是你在人間的化身
My girl the only thing that's stopping it
姑娘啊唯有你能夠阻止我的痛苦
I don't wanna feel lost again
我不想再次體會失去的感覺
My girl the only thing that's stopping it
我的姑娘啊唯有你能阻止我的痛苦

從來都來不及反應
Never had no time to react
我得留心我的背後
Gotta watch over my back
把頭撞向水槽
Slamming my head on the sink and
我從沒表現得像個男人
I've never been much as a man
從未有過錦衣珠寶或者左擁右抱但是
Never had b*****s or bling but
我受夠了當個坐在後面只羨慕別人的人
I'm done sitting back as a fan
該死的
Damn
吃了人家一拳，臉頰裡似乎有骨頭碎了

我厭倦了在煙霧中咳嗽和在數羊中入眠
Eat the punches, breaking bones inside my cheeks
藝術家我也崇拜過
I' m sick of coughing from the smoke and counting sheep
在大腦雪崩時則成了對手
Artists I wors*ipped
擊敗他們隨後又回來
Turn into rivals in avalanche
你也曾經表現得像個經驗豐富的老手
Knocking them off and come back again
而我只是一個死盯著結果的的小屁孩
You used to act like a veteran
你從肺腑詩篇中看不出任何名堂
I'm just a kid with a purpose
發誓我假得就像是個塑料人
You don't see s*it through these verses
開始逐漸消失又回來
Swear that I'm fake like a plastic man
我的存在也開始逐漸淡化隨後又回來
Starting to fade and come back again
被困在不斷被忽視的怪圈中
My presence starting to fade and come back again
嘗試著去注意我傑出的地方

這樣的資格里我還有剩的嗎
Trapped in a cycle of negligence
當我在家裡抽著煙在網飛上搜索
Trying to follow my excellence
散漫地搜尋電影列成我的節目單
Is there anything left on this members*ip
扭斷脖子也算是個快速解決的辦法
At home while I smoke and search netflix
我可能不是個正常人吧？
Targets that scratch up my checklist
Breaking my neck is a quick fix
I'm not a regular person?