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清醒時我希望自己能改變，卻只能迷失自我

不斷地消耗精力，在房間裡創作音樂

媽媽問我“那成果在哪？為什麼你對家裡沒有任何貢獻？
When Im lucid I wish to lose id, instead I lose it.
為什麼你對這個世界還是一無所知，Rav，你的房間味道沖死了！”
Self consumed, in my room pursuing music.
她認為我什麼都不在乎
Momma asking'Where the fruits is? Why are you useless?
老實說，我也開始這樣想了
Why are you clueless about the world, Rav, your room stinks!'
無論是錢還是在家裡的地位我都沒能得到
She thinks I dont give two shits.
難道我是麥田裡的守望者？被偽裝起來的瘋子？
Truth is, she might be right.
放棄了一切卻只為了想像中的生活？
I fail to see the light in both gold and family pride.
就這樣即將被趕出自己的家，離開屬於自己的樂園
Am I the cather in the rye? Batshit in disguise?
這時才發現，鏡中的自己只是一個寄生蟲
Tossed reality for an imaginable life?
一副賊眉鼠眼的樣子
Bout to be kicked out the house, get detached from paradise.
而在社會不斷變化的標準下
Only recognize this then, mirror shows a parasite.
可能我還沒有那麼墮落
What a shifty pair of eyes.
家裡認為我不會去努力
In this shifting paradigm.
嘗試過反抗卻只能被社會玩弄在指尖上，唉
I aint shit, apparently
他們逼我禁足在家，但對我來說在家也很煎熬
parents think that I dont try.
反過來想想，自己主動去自虐怎麼樣
Tried to fight the system, bound to play into its hands, man.
大概也不會有什麼區別，不如還是乖乖坐著
They say stay grounded, but the floor is lava for the madman.
（現實就是如此）
Upside down approach, in the lava doing handstands.
這就是我的現實
Probably aint no different, just a bad plan.
（現實就是如此）

（現實就是如此）
(This is what it feels like )
每當自我感覺良好時，就會意識到
This is what real life feels like.
（現實就是如此）
(This is what it feels like)
嘿，我需要點意見
(This is what it feels like)
有個惡魔潛伏在這個鎮裡
Whenever you feel nice, realize.
而我只能預見到一塌糊塗的人生
(This is what it feels like)
（現實就是如此）
Yo, I gotta take advice.
這就是我的現實
Theres a demon lurking in this town.
（現實就是如此）
I gotta jump the rail of life
嗯，這就是我的現實
(This is what it feels like)
你看，這就是現實啊
This is what real life feels like.
就算沒人在找你，但你依舊躲了起來
(This is what it feels like)
對自己只能依靠'藥物'生活的習慣而感到狂躁
Yup, this is what real life feels like.
不禁想到從此之後會不會只是個無名小卒

從來都沒接近過一直在找的幸福
See, this is what it feels like
每次醒來都好比在做最逼真的噩夢
When nobody looking for you, but you still hide
我承認我是個怪人，操，也只有我在乎
When you been kicked your habits like the pill life.
他們說我爹是個惡棍
Took that monkey off your back but it still bites.
不過我從來都沒了解過他
Will I ever get anywhere but right here?
在我媽看我的時候，她又會想到什麼
Chasing happiness but never getting quite near.
在她眼中的我是不是和我扭曲的爹一模一樣
Every waking moment most vivid of nightmares.
我已經犯了太多的錯誤，以後也不見得會改
Im weird, **** it. Ill admit it, man, I care.
嘗試過自殺,但失敗後也不覺得自己像活著
And they say he was a thug.
牽著黑暗中完全看不見希望的最後一根稻草
I never knew my dad.
這種感覺真爛
When my mom looks at me, what it is she looking at.
不過這就是現實吧
Ever since I got kicked out of school for cooking crack.
是吧？
Then pushing crack, I wonder if she sees me as my crooked dad.
（現實就是如此）
Ive ****ed up too many times, and I still might.
這就是我的現實
Tried to kill myself and failed, still dont feel alive.
（現實就是如此）
Grasping at straws in the dark with no real light.
（現實就是如此）
I aint feeling great.
每當自我感覺良好時，就會意識到
This is what real life feels like.
（現實就是如此）
Right?
嘿，我需要點意見

有個惡魔潛伏在這個鎮裡
(This is what it feels like)
而我只能預見一塌糊塗的人生
This is what real life feels like.
（現實就是如此）
(This is what it feels like)
這就是我的現實
(This is what it feels like)
（現實就是如此）
Whenever you feel nice, realize.
嗯，這就是我的現實
(This is what it feels like)
Yo, I gotta take advice.
Theres a demon lurking in this town.
I gotta jump the rail of life
(This is what it feels like)
This is what real life feels like.
(This is what it feels like)
Yup, this is what real life feels like.