suicide doesn't kill, sadness does

-I'm someone who struggles intensely with depression.
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-Doesn't really know what that means,that might surprise them to hear
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Because there's this pretty popular misconception that depression is just being sad.
我其實是那個和抑鬱症激烈鬥爭的人
When something in your life goes wrong
對於不太懂抑鬱症是什麼含義的人來說他們聽到我所言這些或許會驚異
When you break up with your girlfriend
社會上對抑鬱症有普遍的誤解認為抑鬱症只是一種悲傷
When you lose a loved one
是當你人生低谷的感受
When you don't get the job you wanted
是當和女友分手時的感受
But that's sadness.
是當失去心愛之人的感受
That's a natural thing.That's a natural human emotion.
是當你找不到心儀工作的感受
Real depression isn 't being sad when something in your life goes wrong
但這只是悲傷
Real depression is being sad when everything in your life is going right.
這是很自然的事情這只是人類自然的情感
-The seriousness of it is this:
但真正的抑鬱症並非處於人生低谷時的悲傷
every 30 seconds, every 30 seconds, somewhere, someone in the world takes their own life because of depression
真正的抑鬱症是當生活軌道正確運行時你也感到悲傷
And it might be two blocks away,it might be two countries away, it might be two continents away.
(雖然抑鬱症從未出現在媒體大眾面前)但它的確很嚴重
But it's happening, and it's happening every single day.
每隔三十秒在某些地方在這個世界上的某個人就會因為抑鬱癥結束自己的生命
And we have a tendency, as a society, to look at that and go, 'So what?'
或許這發生在兩個街區以外或許這發生在兩個國家以外還可能發生在兩個大洲以外
'That's your problem. That's their problem.'
這並非捏造這是真真實實的發生髮生在我們每一天裡
We say we're sad and we say we're sorry
作為一個社會如今有一種趨勢面對這種情況會說“那又怎麼樣”
But we also say, 'So what?'
“這是你自己的問題這是抑鬱症患者自身問題”
Well, two years ago two years ago it was my problem
我們說我們感到悲傷我們感到很抱歉
Because I sat on the edge of my bed where I'd sat a million times before and I was suicidal.
可社會群體成員還繼續說“那又如何呢”
-So I sat there that night beside a bottle of pills with a pen and paper in my hand
好吧兩年前或許這是我的問題
And I thought about taking my own life and I came this close to doing it.
因為我曾千百次坐在我的床邊想要了結自我
And I didn't, so that makes me one of the lucky ones
(我是榮譽榜上、派對上經常出現的孩子你說這不是抑鬱但你錯了)那晚我坐在床邊旁邊是一瓶藥手上拿著紙筆
One of the people who gets to step out on the ledge and look down but not jump
我想過了結自己的生命我差一點就做了
One of the lucky ones who survives.
我真的差一點點就做了但我沒有所以我成為了幸運的一員
Well, I survived, and that just leaves me with my story
是在臨近內心懸崖邊緣轉身的人是低頭凝視這懸崖最終沒有跳下去的那個人
And my story is this: In four simple words, I suffer from depression.
我是倖存者之一
I suffer from depression.
沒錯我獲救了這也讓我和我的故事並存
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我的故事就是:用簡單四個字概括就是患上抑鬱