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I want to get from this modest thing
And I expect some persuading
Then I might lose everything
Maybe my mind
And Im coy and embarrassed too
And ashamed Im in love with you
And for all Ive done to you trying again
My bouncing head it shakes
And my feelings are reeling
Thats when my heart
It breaks like your car
Before my sense hits the floor again
Better lock up my door again
As the hope drowning medicine flows in your arms
From the look that you gave to me
I could tell there was empathy
As my self- spurning chemistry
Tries once again
I never said a word
About your flirting
Your smirking
I know this thinking has pulled me apart
Behind the windows of my mind
Lurks a fear of womenkind
Cause I never got valentines
Just like all the rest
Just one more reminder
Of the liar
I admire
This kind of blindness
Makes sense
But youve scared me with your friends
And your fears
And tears
Im asking you to lend me your hands