Valentine是day (shameful)

Torn between crying for help
痛苦不堪我哭尋求助
And not lettin them see me sweat
不讓他們看我狼狽模樣
But its certain shit I cant forget
但肯定讓我無法忘記
I wont get over it easy, shit makes me queasy
我難以輕易釋懷這噁心到我
I am making amends with myself
我正在彌補自己
Forgiving me for loving you
寬恕自己愛著你
I took a risk loving loudly, defended you proudly
我大聲言愛為愛走險以守護著你為傲
Ignored all the signs, yeah, its true
忽視你犯下的罪錯
And the immature me wishes that I could make it known
而那天真稚嫩的我多希望知道
That you should be left alone
該讓你一個人呆著
Dont deserve words or thoughts from me
我不該發言胡思亂想
I can go heal on my own
我能自我療傷
And the immature me hopes the world sees just who you are, oh
同時那個我又希望讓現實告訴你你不過如此
A facade only gets you so far
你只是虛有其表
And Im bigger than you, so I cant meet you where you are
我比你好多了我不能在你所在之處遇見你
Id say your name but you dont deserve recognition
我想叫你名字但你不配得到肯定
You played the hero but you really are the villain
你扮演著英雄角色實際上只是個惡棍
There aint a bone in me that wants to spare your feelins
我對你的感情恨之入骨
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition
你說我瘋了但就是我的直覺
Used me for status, and the fame, and recognition
利用我獲得地位名聲和認可
Its ****in crazy what they do for recognition
他們為獲得認可所做的舉動實在瘋狂
Id say your name but you dont deserve recognition
我想叫你名字但你不配得到肯定
Id say your name but I wont, uh
我想叫你但我不會
I got to give myself credit for loving as hard as I did
我要為自己付出的愛自豪
I helped you fight your addiction and change your whole life
我幫你戒掉藥癮改變了你整個人生
Just to find myself played in the end
最後卻發現自己給耍了
Aint no regrets cause Im proud that my heart was so pure
但也不留遺憾對我的心還如此純淨感到自豪
And Im never ashamed of my love
我從不為我的愛感到羞恥
Now Im finding strength in the fact that youre nothing to me
現在我尋求到力量你對我已經不重要了
And I know the things I am above
我知道我比你好太多
And the immature me wishes I could just run away (Ah, ah, ah)
那個心智不熟的我希望我就這樣一走了之
To somewhere I still feel sane
去一個我能保持理智的地方
Cause truth is Ive been ****in lost since that very day
因為事實上從那天起我便迷失了方向
And really Im wishing that I could just catch a break (Ah, ah, ah)
我真的希望我能稍作歇息
Its been Hell every couple days (Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh)
每過兩天都彷彿地獄
And now, Im here broken, expected to carry the weight
現在我心力交瘁備受期望擔負著重任
Id say your name but you dont deserve recognition (Nah)
我想叫你名字但你不配得到肯定
You played the hero but you really are the villain
你扮演著英雄角色實際上只是個惡棍
There aint a bone in me that wants to spare your feelings (Ah)
我對你的感情恨之入骨
You called me crazy, but it was my intuition (Ah)
你說我瘋了但就是我的直覺
Used me for status and the fame and recognition (Ah)
利用我獲得地位名聲和認可
Its ****ing crazy what they do for recognition (Ooh)
他們為獲得認可所做的舉動實在瘋狂
Id say your name but you dont deserve recognition
我想叫你名字但你不配得到肯定
Id say your name but I wont, uh
我想叫你但我不會
Thats just you ( Deserve recognition)
值得讚譽那隻是你
I always land on my feet
我總是站穩腳跟
Bounce back game clean and neat (Ah, woah-woah, ah)
在這場遊戲中游刃有餘保持純淨整潔
Wish I didnt check your text when you was drunk sleep
真希望當時你喝酒醉睡覺時沒看你的短信
Ive seen everything that I aint wanna see
看到了我不想看到的一切
That I needed to see, that I needed to be
可我又正需要看清
Hope you live happily ever after with the bitch (Bitch), uh
那就祝你和她幸福生活
Fly to France, wine and crackers, honeymoonin with the bitch
飛去法國度蜜月糕點美酒相伴
Hope you **** around and have the son you wanted with the bitch
祝你和她早生貴子
Yall might be soulmates after all of this, so
畢竟你們會是靈魂伴侶
Out on the table your friends and your family, even your label
公開你的親朋好友和綽號吧
Everyone love me, damn, its so shameful
每個人都愛我這太羞愧了
I kept you stable, you should be grateful
是我保你安穩你應該心存感激
I ain't find out sooner that you was unfaithful
但很快我發現你的不忠
Damn, you so shameful
法克你真的很無恥
So *** *ing shameful
真™的可恥
Damn, youre so, uh, ****ing ungrateful, uh
去你的忘恩負義